wishing upon a fairy

2007-07-10T12:35:00.000+08:00

if anyone still ever reads this blog,
ive moved,
i wont close this blog down,
i wont bear to,
ive too much stuff here,
so yepp!

www.xanga.com/shopoholicious

2007-05-01T11:54:00.000+08:00

if things were to ever be meant this way,
im telling you, its sucks.

if two stubborn people are coming together,
to compromise, its tough.

when two worlds apart come together,
it either joins so beautifully,
or it clashes,

when two sets of minds,
having different aims&goals come together,
they never meet, and never compromise,

so are we this?
are we meant to walk our separate ways?
seems like it.

just know that its not what i want,
you couldnt give me what i want,
and you kept thinking yours was the best decision?
what doest this goes to show?
think about it, if you have time.
but apparently, i doubt it,

goodbye my lover,goodbye my friend

2007-04-30T18:34:00.000+08:00

/editt.

i had quite an alright day,
till you spoilt my day,
i doubt you'll see this,but
argh,how can you be ever be so unreasonable!
irritating piece of shite,
self-centered,selfish,bitch.
im so not gonna be nice anymore.

on a lighter note,
i miss samuel lee!
if you see this, TAG ME!
sorry that i ranted at you just now!
i cant believe shes so nehneh.

im gonna start my research¬emaking tonight!

random pictures from sat and today,

2007-04-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

churched,lot1,home,holland.

candice! hi! i like the emo song!
i promise we will register the camp sooon!
im so so lazy! : /

lunched with my boy,alvin,shauna,
meiyi,shuoxian,jorel,george.
funny bunch of people i tell you (:

an extra special shoutout to my boy:
baby! gosh, please chill alright? i know it sucks, i know its pissing off, i know youre tired, youre stressed out, youre frustrated, but please please my dear boy, CHILL! its not worth your anger AT ALL, i want to see that smile! that smile ive fell in love with! cheer up and know that im always always here for you! and i so do love you! smoooch

2007-04-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

MOE,imm,candice's place,church,harborfront,home

if you ever see this,
thank you aunty veron
for the ride up the hill (:
its so sweet of you,

im feeling crushed up,
i dont know what im doing with myself,
its just complicated&messed up,

i love you baby, but will you give me the chance?

2007-04-27T09:57:00.000+08:00

gosh, im so upset with myself
im feeling so so crapped up inside,
like what the heck man,
what the heck are you ever doing samantha?
youre such a kukusami!

seriously, im always making things so bad,
i tried to make things better,
but somehow, it doesnt turn out the way i wanted it!
oh sigh, im not trying to hard right?

grrrrr, im so pissed with myself,

2007-04-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

i swear i would never buy anything
from unauthorised online sellers anymore.
freaking irritating postpeople,
pfffffffffft.
grrrrrrrrrrr.
i will shop personally from shops,
pay a lil more,
get it right away!

i should not even go window shopping!
once i lay my eyes on something,
i would so want to buy it!

okay, whatever im ranting,
im just feeling so crapped up over my top,
thats lost in the mail, somewhere in singapore,freaking pathetic

2007-04-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

omg i was listing out my wishlist,
its so darn long,
i want practically everything!

can a nice fairygodmother,
plonk me with a treasurechest worth of cash?

shopping, is such a sinful obsession,
so much for,
'buy an item,a week'

i miss you my boy!
i <3 you,

2007-04-24T00:40:00.000+08:00

/edit.

i just got back from malaysia
and im so so tired,
i miss that boy ta bits!
webcamed was fun! (:

i love my newfound wallpaper! <3

you know the right words,
to make me feel whole again,
you know the right ways,
to make me smile,

i love you for who you are,

2007-04-23T18:40:00.000+08:00

ive slept so much today!
maybe its good, so i wont eat,
therefore, i lost weight!
fat hope samantha.

anyhow, met maye my dearest BFF!
holland's provence,teabreak! (:
chitty chatty session was fab!

not alot of pictures la,
we only realised when we were in the cab home!
nevertheless, i love you bff! <3

ah! i miss samuel lee my boy!
sigh! i wanna see you soooon!
oh wells, call me!

2007-04-22T23:45:00.000+08:00

/edit.

churched,jurongeast,cityhallmrt,
marinasquare,citilink,rafflescity,home

met ilena at cityhall mrt,
BILLYBOMBERS ribs for lunch!yum!
overspending was the right word,
to describe today's shopping trip!

cream of wild mushroom soup for teabreak,
at the soup spoon! yum yum!

ice cream treat from ilena,
at BEN's & JERRYS!
chunkymonkey! (:

i was packing my wardrobe,
and dang! ive got three piles of unwanted clothes,
rather clothes i dont think i'll wear anymore,
so if you want them,tag my board!

further down will be,
picture overload with ilena!
so dont mind the unglam shots! (:

but before that, i wanna say,
i miss my boy! heappps!
11may! i cant wait!
i miss times like these,

PICTURES!

at the end of the day,
im such a big fat shopaholic!
ah, sinful obsession : /

2007-04-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

my tummy's giving me hell load of a problem,
it gets upset soooooo easily!
gosh, it hurts so bad :(

daddy's back, with purchases of electronic stuff!
no sign of clothes&accessories!
why daddy! why!

went for dinner at race course road,
i love the claypot rice, super yummy!
ben&jerry's at raffles city too!

but sadly, its giving me tummy so much problems!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

i miss you my boy!

MAYE: bff! yes we've yet to lunch and we so need to! i wanna go shoppingggg! <3

candice: i think its 20 may! nvm la, we missed the early bird discount! its just 5%!

if you see your picture here! youre greatly missed by me! :D

2007-04-21T11:56:00.000+08:00

what the fuck is wrong with the internet!
i typed a freaking hell long mail to send out,
they dont let me send, and they didnt even allow me to save it!
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

so bloody pissing off!
go to hell.

2007-04-21T11:01:00.000+08:00

daddy's coming home today,
im glad, so yay!

now my question is,
what IS one step at a time going to be?
is it gonna lead to what YOU want?
or is it gonna lead to what I want?
think about it.

you know what i want,
and i find that its nothing wrong,
we've just gotta learn how to deal with those issues,
i mean by running away from it,
its not gonna do any good at all isn't it?

2007-04-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

can you believe im BANNED from tagging my own tagboard?!
this is so dumb!
i'll reply my tags here!

weilin: hi! thanks, im trying my best! but may i know who are you? from..?

jaclyn: you silly girl! cheer up okay! follow your heart but guard it too alright?you know what i mean la, so please cheer up! im glad i saw you yesterday! i love you girl, i'll be here for you no matter what happens! (:

ilena: woman! vainpok woman! cheer up okay! im gonna be there to let you rant at me, just as how i always do rant at you too! lol. everything's gonna be alright, so hang in there! love you too woman! and im not A stuff! remember that! im a lady! glamorous lady!

candice: hello sexy! i hope we can go church camp and bunk together! i will accompany you ta study & help you paint your nails la! ah! im getting so excited! sexys need their shopping time soon! love you sexy!

oh guess what, i bumped into people again!
i saw MS HIA! giving that sneaky look,
nothing new from her la.
i saw wanling, dearest ms mango!
just as when i was chatting with her online
last night, i saw her!
i saw malcolm too.

suppered with my dearest samuel lee at essential brews just now,
potato wedges&summerpeach!
just the right combination,
the right company,
the right topic of discussion,
one step at a time was the conclusion (:

alright, im gonna go shower!
i love my girls, and i love samuel lee

2007-04-20T10:10:00.000+08:00

i dont want to be friends, WITH BENEFITS.
you know what i want,
i still dont find your explanation sensible,
its just youre scared, thats all.
precisely you dont know what the future holds,
and youre not even giving it a try?
tell me,
why isnt it worth the try?

2007-04-19T21:28:00.000+08:00

ive been bumping into a no. of people these two days,
i saw marcus foo yesterday,
ilena&jaclyn came visit me,
jonathanchua&the girl,mrs chng,
seb&daniel on 61 today,
apparently, daniel was dozing off.

so yay for me,
except the fact that you didnt keep all your promises,
still disappoints me,
i guess i will just leave,
shrugs,sigh.

anyway, this is for the faifield choir,
everyone of you there!

i know i havent been there to see you guys sing and practice, but i wanna say,a job well done today,i am ever so proud of each of you,you guys did great alright!i know alot of time and effort was put in, but no matter what, i believe god has his plans for this choir, he has been ever so gracious to us all the time, instead thank him for the results, wipe those tears away and smile! i wanna see all your pretty faces! press on and practice hard, but all of you did so well! i love you all!

2007-04-18T21:32:00.000+08:00

/edit

sometimes things are beyong your control,
its beyond many things you just cant see,
im clinging on to the tiniest hope there is,
im feel so naive, so innocent,
maybe i just am that,

i still want, what i want.

but ive enough with emo posts&rants,
i want ta be happy,
i dont know how long i would take to be happy,
maybe never.

im gonna be a brave girl,

2007-04-18T10:10:00.000+08:00

i believe theres true love in this world
i believe ive experienced it,
to tell you that,
despite the happiness of it,
is indescribable,
but the hurt&the heartache,
is indescribable as well.

i live by this that,
' nobody falls in love by CHOICE,its by CHANCE nobody stays in love by CHANCE,its all EFFORT
nobody falls out of love by CHANCE,its by CHOICE'

so will you make it work?
will you make it work even though,
upset is the only thing resounding our heads?
will you make it all better, then to run away from it?
i want to get through this hurdle together,i want to get through this hurdle and continue to walk on together,as i believe with EFFORT given, it will work out,

unless,
you yourself have CHOSEN not to,
i really guess,
ive got nothing more to say,
ive got nothing more to cling on to anymore,

you will just be of my past,
and you know i dont want that,
will you grant me this?
i dont ask for anything else in the world alright,
i need you,
i need you to get me through the day,
i need you to make my day,
i need you to be there for me,
i need you to love me despite whatever happens,
i need you to give me greetings every morning&night,
i need you to drop me texts out of the blue,
i need you to ring me as and when i least expect it,
i need you to be my guy,
i need you to make my heart whole once again,
i need you to mend the heartache,

ive said all i can,
ive given this one LAST chance,
i love you

2007-04-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

i just got woken up and i cant get back to sleep,
ive enough about certain things,
enough is enough,
ive been taken advantage without knowing,
and with their realisation,
i feel bloody, cheated.

how could you ever do this!? huh!
youre being so selfish!
you dont want to be together,
but you still want the other party?
since when in this world has such good deals,
probably only stupid people like me,
would give in to such good deals,
get taken advangtage of,

you refused to respond to WHAT I WANT,
you refused to say a word about WHAT I WANT,
but instead, you took advantage of my weak spot,
to get what you want?
how could you ever do that?
why are you like that?
since when are you like that?
why are you so selfish? huhh?
im hurt enough already okay,
if you think by doing this,
its making me happy,making me smile,
youre wrong, im far more hurt alright.
happy now?
go school tomorrow gloating about it!
i dont care anymore!
i dont care about you anymore!
just get lost okay!
gosh, ive burst okay, ive burst,
ive bottled it up for 2years4months,
ive finally burst okay samuel lee,
this sucks,in case you didnt know.
know your place will you?

i dont know what i ever did to deserve this,
i dont know hwat i ever did wrong to you alright,
forget it, what YOU want,
is not what I want,
so we dont click,
we dont meet to the terms,
we're not on the same frequency,

and it thought this week was starting to get better,
i was wrong,
now with this thing,
and im woken up with horrid cramps,
just kill me somebody,
im tired, im so tired,

i love you from the bottom of my heart,
you gave up that chance,
you treated it as though you had power over it,but im telling you now,
i dont want to,
its hurting me,
its tearing my heart apart,
its excruciating pain is killing me.

i dont see you showing initiative to make things right
i dont,
its always me worrying ever so much,
if this is how its gonna end,
dont remind how we got together in the first place,
thats it okay.

2007-04-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

first&foremost,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMSON CHAN!
although you annoy me half the years in my entire life so far,
but i still love you,
somehow.

im not in the mood okay,
i feel crapped up,
nothing's gonna change that feeling,
i just dont know you anymore.
strangers is what it is,
fine by me.

i miss you right this moment,
but does it make a difference anymore?
probably not.
shrugs

2007-04-17T07:55:00.000+08:00

this is it,
im so mad,
what made it worst,
and stoopid blogger take forever to load,

if this is happening,
im not agreeing to it,
but i doubt you even care about MY OPINIONS,
whatever,
fuck everything,
i should have just left for newyork,
why did i even stay,
how dumb of me,

im not in the mood,
so just stay clear,
if not i'll blow your head OFF
anybody,

2007-04-17T00:10:00.000+08:00

gosh, ive never been so mad!

i wasn't happy about certain things,
i was disappointed,
i was upset,
i felt terrible,
i felt crapped up,
i wanted to be comforted,
i wanted to be assured,

instead,

i was left hanging,
why,
connection failed, not allowing text to be transferred,
rang up starhub,
claimed theres massive people texting,
what the heck,
but in some sense, relieve.

all i can say, i miss you
i want,what i really want,
i dont want to be rant at,
especially at precious time like this.
i love you

2007-04-16T16:16:00.000+08:00

just came back from fareast's vodaskin,
gosh, it kept biting my face! :/

i wanna go shopping!
i saw so many things i like!
like literally so many! sigh!

i cant wait for 11may,
hurry come will you? :(

im so tired, im gonna nap,
enjoy the video!
i just came across this in youtube (:

hello samuel lee!
i miss you!

2007-04-15T19:48:00.000+08:00

churched,imm,jurong,alexandra road.

i know you wont see this,but
thanks aunty mary for the lift to church!

met my mom at imm after,
for lunch at fish&co.
i had new york fish&chips.

my mom knew i was so depressed,
she offered to pay my movie ticket,
yes i know its kinda pathetic to watch a movie alone,
caught mr bean's holiday,
mrbean=seriously dumb in the ass.

things got better after,
and i had my nice avocado juice today!
yum yum yum!
*smacks lips!

i want to type this,
i hope things are fine,
maybe these are the lil stepping stones,
we've got to get through?

this guy is a great guy,honestly.
no words can ever express how thoughtful,how caring this guy can ever get.
how sweet his words&deeds come across.

he is one great guy, bestest friend,
my bestest shopping partner,
my bestest person i can ever confide in,rant at,get mad at.

but i know,
he is one guy i gave my whole heart to,
he is one guy i gave my commitment to,
he is one guy that made me smile without fail,
he is also one guy that broke my heart,
he is also one guy that made things right again,

he is one guy i would be there for him no matter what,
this is my promise.

no matter what,
you will be kept ever so close in my heart
you just mean that much,
i love you.

2007-04-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

have you ever came across one point of your life where,
people just fail you,
they fail you especially when you expected so much more from them,
sounds selfish,
but when you fail them for certain reasons,
they just turn their backs on you,
making you feel like you just commited something so wrong

but then again,
you wonder what the heck you ever did,
sometimes in certain situations,
its just so hard,
so hard you just are at lost for words of what to say,
and what to do,
then, its the point,
youre just so lost,
so alone.

i hate changing my phone's wallpaper
OVER & AGAIN,
that feeling so suckk.

2007-04-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

maybe i should stop caring altogether,
i care too much,
too much till i dont even get back what i deserve
whatever, im not a pushover okay.

theres a limit to everything
yes, its ALWAYS my fault!
im such a troublemaker,
what to do samantha,youre that stupid.

2007-04-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

my mom was telling me,
we're going to hk,this june!
kill me somebody.

either ive been a spendthrift,in my past life
or theres something wrong with me
i keep shopping, NON-STOP!
i realised ive yet to wear any of them,
gosh, shoot me.
samantha,youre wayy pathetic.

i keep wearing my old clothes
or i just dont bother to dress up,
freaking lazy attitude

and whats worst,
samuel lee's mad at me.
just great. wow.

okay,whatever that was typed above,
i was babbling,
and i feel so much better after!

thoughts of the day!:

*i want to go shopping! (oh, shut up samantha)
*i want another phone
*i feel like eating subway tmr!
*i want an angel to transfer loads of cash to my account!
*i want to have a day out with samuel lee sooon! :(

2007-04-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

im just plain tired.
who ever knew doing nothing makes you tired.

anyway, i miss my boy heaps!
gosh.

enjoy the video!

im not a jesse mccartney fan,
but i like this song!

if you see my girl,

just tell her i miss her smile,

tell her i'm counting the minutes,

gonna see her in a little while.

i know when she holds on to me

she's the one that i could never leave without

oh oh oh oh

2007-04-09T19:32:00.000+08:00

ive no pictures today
pathetic i know.

whats more pathetic is that i didnt swim!
im still thinking of whether i should go now.
so fickled minded me i know.

pianoed,fairfield sec,clubhouse,home,ghim moh.

went back to school to sell my choir shoes
and collect our school mag.
first thing i stepped into the office,
we saw ms lim,scolding three fellas.

i wanna go shopppping!
gosh i so want that newurbanmale bag! (:
and so many other things too!
shop shop shop! :D

i miss my boy!
but sadly, SIGH!

anyway, check this out.
i hardly post videos.
but i like this.

cause i cant live if you're not happy,

i can't live if you cry,

but i can live without you, if it makes you smile

2007-04-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

gosh i havent been blogging
my internet connection's been down
stupid mio wasnt functioning!

anyway, this week's been so tiring
yeah, aint going in detail
too much of details to type out.

i will probably just put up random pictures.

i like this advert.

samuel lee junjie!
this was exactly how i felt when
you-know-what happened! :(

EASTER!

my one eyed pez monster!

dont you think their smiles are soooooo ALIKE? (:

this is just pure coincidence!
WE THINK ALIKE!

2007-04-02T21:12:00.000+08:00

i was woken by a horrid dream
its like those kind of
keeping you in suspense kind of story!
so scary please!
only difference, i was part of the dream.

okay whatever, im babbling on the above.

today's fine.
i was so so tired.

fareast,ikea,home,ikea.

look at my avocado drink!
i drank the huge one!
yum!

im going down to closet treasures tomorrow.
somebody come visit me!

on a random note:
i misssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss my boy!

2007-04-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

went for frets yesterday
im a loyal supporter okay!
im only supporting MY ONE AND ONLY.
okay i mean besides my fat boy la.

the concert was alrightt.
i mean how much feedback can i give
when my eyes were glued on one.
and hatred on another.

what im very sad was
i didnt take a picture with pamela!
and my boy! :(

today church, and my parents anniversary lunch
my mommy invited my boy! :))
yayy!

pictures!
videos are on ilena's blog.

do you see MY BABY BOY!
so hot please. (:

anniversay lunch!

2007-03-30T23:15:00.000+08:00

today was horrid.

piano lesson,holland,home,town.

i figured i need to start mugging for my music now
3months according to aunty sandra,
is enough for me to fine tune my skills
before going into NAFA.

im looking forward to tomorrow!

i didnt even get ta see my babyboy today!
ugh, it makes me so disappointed :(

thoughts of the day:
i hate rainy days
i hate it when i forget my keys

2007-03-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

if you think i typed my two previous post for fun
you are so wrong
i meant every word of it.

you just dont know how much i miss you
i dont even know how to express in words.
all i want is to give you a huge big hug.
i miss that alright.

i miss you,
its as simple as that.

2007-03-29T17:16:00.000+08:00

okay ive got all the pictures up
there are so many i realised.

today's a bad day.
i woke up with a bad dream.
i didnt feel like practicing piano.
i didnt feel like gyming nor swimming.
i was just lazing around the entire day.

im so so tired.
im so so scared.

2007-03-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

/edited.

gosh im ever so tired.
i'll post the pictures up once it comes to me.

holland,vivo,sentosa,vivo,harbourfront,home.
i met pam me la today!
after donkey months,
we went out! :D
it was fun catching up with her! <3

met ilena,jaclyn,sarah,abigail.
caught songs by the sea.
gosh, the effects & the lightings were fab.
storyline's so-so.

i wanna bring my boy there ta watch!
simply just walk along the beach handinhand with you
is all i can ever ask.
i just wanna be with you.

you dont know how much i miss you.
i miss big hugs from you.
i miss smooches.
i miss having meals with you
i miss shopping with you
i miss laughing with you
i miss chatting with you
i miss gossiping with you
i miss ranting at you
i miss teasing you
i miss your lil thingys that make me giggle
i miss your smile.
i miss your witty nature
i miss your text(although i just received one)
i miss your calls
i miss taking pictures with you
i miss smilling at you
i miss sharing a drink with you
i miss sharing our stuff
i miss watching movies with you
i miss tickling you
i miss our abercrombie shopping sprees
i miss sitting in your car
i miss chilling at your place with you
i miss sitting at your dining table having dinner with you
i miss studying with you (though we dont usually get any done.)
i miss meddling with your bags&pencilcase.
i miss staying up with you ALL NIGHT chatting with you
i miss falling asleep with you watching me
i miss everything!

I MISS YOU!

its such a loong list.
but yeah, i never thought i would
till i thought deep about it.

ahh,
am i a girl thats so blessed or what?

thoughts of the day.
*i should go gym & swim everyday.
*i should start practicing my piano
*i should start shopping for stuff for school

2007-03-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

i really miss my boy.

when i ask myself what do i see in this guy
i find myself answering that,

hes one individual whos unique in character
and personality,
that personality that brings forth humor,
makes my smile each time,without fail.

that individual that shows so much concern
that cares ever so unconditionally,
makes me feel so blessed, so loved.

that individual that shows me,
he works hard for his achievements,
he works towards his goal.
makes me feel ever so proud of him

im proud to be called yours
and this journey of 2years3months and counting,
were just so amazing.
i loved every bit of it.

most of all, i love you.

2007-03-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fun
town,church,westmall.
i love my boy!
like honestly,lil things he say makes my day alot brighter
i <3 you babyboy!

today's kinda draggy
church,teckwhyehawker,church,jurong,holland,vivo.
i seriously need to shop man.
im so deprived.haha.

btw, thanks to all of you who tagged
i was so mad.
naming, my boy, ilena,pammy,peanut,audrey
thanks guys (:

i seriously hate anonymous taggers.

on a lighter note,pictures!

dont you think his so cute? (:

2007-03-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

you know what.
seriously, if any of you out there
wants to tag my board.
seriously, put your name down.

if you want to appear anonymous,
screw offf.
forget about tagging.
just fuck off.

2007-03-23T20:40:00.000+08:00

i've had the worst day any human being can ever have.

i cracked my kneebone! : /

3am-got woken up by horrid cramps
-texted cheryl
4am-went ta restroom,bearing with the pain
5am-went ta the living room, watched teevee ( IN PAIN! )
6am-10am: beared with the pain

the entire day was just PAIN.
seriously, it was horrible.
i hate cramps man.
if labour were as much pain,
forget about kids.

i was supposed to go down to closet treasures today
but oh wells, thanks cheryl!
if you ever see this! :D

on the brighter side of these pain thingy,
i had my avocado juice today!
its really yummy!
all of you should go try it! (:

AND OF COURSE,
im looking forward to tomorrow
finally im getting to spend time with my boy! <3
yay

2007-03-22T17:56:00.000+08:00

this is done especially for you
i know youre mad at me
at what, i dont know.
but whatever it is, im sorry

i love you,
and i need you
you just mean ever so much
enjoy the clip.

2007-03-22T10:10:00.000+08:00

my week's been rather free & easy
i like that! :D
but i soo wanna start school!
ive got months.

went for piano lesson yesterday
i figured since im so free,
i should start bucking up on my pieces
its really wayy below standard.
run fingers run on the keys!

can you tell me again,
why am i so blessed? (:

when i say i love you,darling
that means for good.

youre the best thing that has ever happened to me

2007-03-20T15:16:00.000+08:00

i was just thinking about my 'i want' list
ive made a new one (:
strike off a few items i think

what i want!
1) ~~to really get that scholarship~~
2) get my distinction for my theory exam
3) revamp my wardrobe
4) revamp my accessories
5) buy new shoes! flats! pumps!
6) go shopping! <3
7) watch MUSIC&LYRICS with my boy!
8) take up my mom's bet in me learning _ _ _ _ _ _!
9) go stationery shopping!
10)simply sit & chill with my boy
11) lunch with my BFF!

i cant wait to start school
but i only start on 23july!

what should i do?

2007-03-19T18:08:00.000+08:00

raffles hospital, far east,ghim moh,home.

i will love you
until forever
until death do us part
we'll be together

so take my hand
and hold on tight
and we'll get there
this i swear.

2007-03-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

churched,teckwhyelanehawker,church,
home,closettreasures,home

my boy's unwell! :(
take care and get well soon okay!
you need ta do well for your piano exam
and you so need to bring me ta see
MUSIC&LYRICS! (:
i love you my boy!

thankyou for answering my prayer.

look at how cute my boy looks
in my jacket! lol.

2007-03-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

WHHHHEEEEEEEE!
gosh, im ever so happy!
im like screaming and jumping
and i kept hugging my boy! :D

well, i got in i got in i got in! haha.
YAY! pictures!

2007-03-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

today have been a long day
im tired both mentally and physically

went out with my boy!
gosh what more can isay?
i really love him ta bits!
pictures! :D

but now, i dont know
hes mad at me.
so ughh,all thanks to yougene.
such an ass.

2007-03-16T00:56:00.000+08:00

well, i just cant help expressing my anger
i hate yougene! ugh

/edit
oh and if youre ever gonna see this
youre so so cowardy,
loser freak.

on a lighter note,
im really grateful for so many of you
honestly.
every single of one you thats in my life
you all are special.

nana! thanks for everything!
i love you woman!

well,and i miss maye! my BFF! <33
i love you BFF!

i better get showered and get out of the house.
im meeting my boy! :D

2007-03-15T09:43:00.000+08:00

well, lets see whats going on with my life right now
ive got my savior,ive got a school,
ive got a job, ive got wonderful friends,
ive got my family, ive got my boy.
what more can i ask?
nothing i guess.

i hope i can fulfil everything on my 'i-want-list'

what i want!
1) to really get that scholarship
2) get my distinction for my theory exam
3) revamp my wardrobe
4) revamp my shoe rack
5) revamp my accessories stock
6) have a store at a flea market
7)stick to a strict diet!
8) seriously lose ALOT of weight
9) drop 2 dress sizes
10)ANOTHER nice hug from my boy :D
11)have a GREAT GOLDEN TANN!
12)go shopping
13)spend a WHOLE ENTIRE DAY WITH MY BOY!

alrighty, im going for brekkie!

2007-03-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

/edit

everytime everything that goes wrong,
its my fault.
yes blame it all on me.
so much for that above!
whatever, i guess you dont care too.

i just cant believe this is happening
if youre saying that im wrong about stuff
im telling you, youre wayy wrong

everything i did, i thought of you first
whether i like it a not,
i thought of your welfare
i thought of your happiness
sounds corny, but whatever.

i just miss you,
ive waited the whole day
just to let you finish up the programmes in your schedule
i kept myself occupied,
so i wont have lonely thoughts when youre busy

but can you say the same for me too?
or are you just so caught up in your daily stuff?
tell me.

2007-03-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

im so happy the music exams and audition are over!
the weekends has been fulfilling!

saturday!
studied,theory exam,holland-ed :D
i love my boy!
he brought me out to holland!
whee! (:

sunday!
church.bible study,town with my boy again!
it was fun nevertheless :D
fareast,tangs,wisma,taka,centrepoint,meridian hotel,suntec,IT fair,marinasquare

I LOVE YOU MY BOY!
YOURE THE BEST OF THE BEST!

2007-03-06T17:58:00.000+08:00

i went out with my sexy candice today!
we went shopping!
but we wont tell you where! ((:
we bought two similar items!

candice! i wanna go buy the purple spag top too! (:

oh wells, i need to mug really hard for my theory exam this sat!

and OH OH OH!

im happy! i need to prepare for my AUDITION THIS FRIDAY!

AHHHHHH! yippy!

2007-03-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

okay, my dad is mad!
hes just gone jumping and literally hands-in-the-air!
manU,1-nil?
how childish my dad can be!

well, today was fab!
except for a teeny weeny part of the day! : /
i love it when i spend time with my boy :D

the only thing, i didnt buy anything today! ahh!
i want so many things till i couldnt decide!

oh wells, i should be mugging music now.
i better spend the whole afternoon doing that tomorrow!
shrugs, its not fair when you have such demoralising piano teachers.
what the heck.

what i want!
1) to really get that scholarship
2) get my distinction for my theory exam
3) revamp my wardrobe
4) revamp my shoe rack
5) revamp my accessories stock
6) have a store at a flea market
7)stick to a strict diet!
8) seriously lose ALOT of weight
9) drop 2 dress sizes
10) a nice hug from my boy :D

pictures from malaysia trip on thurs!

say hello to samantha!
tonns of watermelons at jusco supermarket

some apples for you?

what about pineapples?

oOh! my samuel lee's no.1 hate food! haha.

2007-02-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

im starting to dislike piano lessons
dont ask me why.

piano,town(sent my phone for repair),plaza sing,home.

i was just thinking on my ride home
and i came up with a list of things i should be doing.

1) i should stop spending on impulse
2) i should stop buying pencil cases
(apparently i bought one today : /)
3) i should stop buying tops.
4) i should stop buying nail poilish
5) i should stop buying hair accessories
6) i should stop buying earrings
7) i should stop buying bags
8) i should stop buying wallets and purses
9) i should stop buying shoes and slippers and slip ins and wedges
10) i should stop being so mean to people i dont like

1) i should start saving my money
2) i should start window shopping
3) i should start donating my stuff to salvation army
4) i should start studying reaallllllllly hard for my piano exam
5) i should start a budget scheme for myself
6) i should start a healthy diet
7) i should start being a good girl
8)i should start being extremely super duper truper xuper nice to my dearest samuel
(i mean its not that im not okayy. im nice. but i want ta be wayyy nicer! :D)
9) i should start doing quiet time regularly
10) i should start sorting out my messed up stuff

alright, im gonna shower!

ive uploaded new stuff to my sale!
go check it out!
i'll still be uploading some more!
so check it regularly!

SALE!

2007-02-24T18:22:00.000+08:00

op bag! fits A3

12bucks!

outfittergirl shirt!
size5
10bucks.

outfittergirl shirt!

size5

10bucks.

topshop white skirt!

49bucks.

esprit dark blue skirt
brand new.sized38
18bucks.

op long sleeve top.

new. size L

12bucks.

op skirt(with shorts inside)worn once.
sized L
10bucks.

thai orange pants.new.
free sized.
10bucks.

topshop tank topnew. sized 8
5bucks (PENDING!)

mango chic tops!
new!
15bucks each
(pink,black,~~brown~~SOLD!)

butterfly slip in. size 8

10bucks.

roxy pink shirt. size M

10bucks.

~~morgan denim skirt~~

~~15bucks.~~ SOLD!

billabong boardshorts. sized 12

15bucks.

zara long sleeve top. sized M

15bucks

brown long top.free size

10bucks

khaki skirt.sized L

12bucks.

geb denim skirt. sized L

12bucks.

front.
back.

mango racer. sized M
8bucks. (PENDING!)

front
back.
green skirt. free size

10bucks.

front

back.
m)phosis racer. sized M
10bucks.

frontback.

mango skirt
18bucks.

front back.

~~fox jeans.~~
brand new.
55bucks.
size38 SOLD! yes its to sexy candice! she wants her name here! lol.

dark green flare skirt.
length slightly above knee.
free size.
20bucks.

op handbag

10bucks.

front

back.

roxy handbag.
15bucks

gold bag. fits A4.

20bucks.

front

back.

roxy handbag.

18bucks.

roxy handbag. brand new.

20bucks.

zara long top, slightly off shoulder.
worn once.
$10

front.

back.

roxy black off shoulder top. sized M.

25bucks

zara black top. worn once.

16bucks.

front
back.

nike bag. size between A4 &A3

30bucks.

belt!
brand new!
2bucks each! (~~silver~~ SOLD! /gold)
zara long top!
15bucks!

esprit crown tank!

brand new!
18bucks!

brown waist belt!
brand new! 5bucks!

adidas hangbag (soft velvety like material)
used once

16bucks!
href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_aECYMx1bIAo/ReAvrp-CI-I/AAAAAAAAAZI/HM40GhuPppA/s1600-h/Image009.jpg"> front view
back view.

buy this dress/long top!
free size! (:
20bucks!

2007-02-23T19:46:00.000+08:00

im so tired.
dead beat to be exact : /

interview,visit jaclyn,met nana,met baby,home.

anyway, on a lighter note,
IM SO SO HAPPY! :D
ive received good news! whee!
im one step closer! whee!

alright im gonna go shower!
ladeedidum! (:

2007-02-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

today was a super boring day
slept in, breakfast, napped again,
lunched,onetreehill, shower.

how lazy can my day be?
this boring! : /
i dont know, i feel kinda messed up with my life right now
im desperately wanting to go back to school

desperately wanting to go to the school of my choice
will god let me have my way?
is my plan the same as his?
i dont know.

shoutouts!

nana: gosh, i missed you girl. i bet you missed me too! haha. anyway, i wanna go shop! im desperate! : / i love you!

jaclyn: haha i missed you too! we have yet to confirm a date to meet! whee! i love you!

maye: gosh, twin, i dont know whats wrong. but i promise i will call you tomorrow night alright! hang in there! i love you heaps! hugs!

audrey: if you see this, tag my board! i miss you too! :D and definitely love you plenty!

BABY!: i just wanna say, im always here for you. for you and you only. i know sometimes things can get frustrating, it just seems everything is against you, i know how that feels like alright. i just wanna say, im here no matter what happens, i wont leave you at all. i love you honey!

2007-02-21T21:46:00.000+08:00

gymed today!

okay, thats bullshit man.

i only cycled a teeny weeny bit. thats all.

its pathetic, i know.

but the company was great! :D

before gyming!

vivo-ed after,

superdog,toastbox,pull&bear,fox.

as usual the company was great.

guess who made my day so enjoyable?

of course, its none other then my dearest samuel lee!

gosh, what can i say? :D

after gyming! in the car! smelling nice and sweet! :D

2007-02-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

chinese new year day2

its getting draggier by the day goes

oh bother, i just cant wait for it to end

tomorrow's the last day of visiting!

3places more to go!

i wanna go to the hong pao river tomorrow!

someone bring me please please?

i was in such a pissy mood today

ugh, that fat boy is such a pest

he screwed up my nails,

messed up my hair!

i wanna go shopping!

chinese new year wish:

all the shops open now!

i'll let the pics speak for itself about today?

not much of a pics anyway,

so whatever you see,

enjoy!

thats all, good night everyone, i need my beauty sleep

plus i miss my boy, smoooch.

2007-02-19T09:45:00.000+08:00

so chinese new year day 1
kinda usual la i guess.

except that we went church!
took looads of pics there with my two lovelies!
MAYELEANOR YAM MEIYI!
YOU BETTER SEND ME THE PICS SOOOOON!

the rest of the day was alright la!
watched just follow law,
the story line sucked,
but there were many hilarious parts!
i couldnt stop laughing (duh!)

besides, i started dieting!
im gonna make a note of my food intake.lol.

nevertheless, i really miss my boy.
i hope things are fine
and i love you heaps and heaps.

family picture! its kinda weird
still weird i guess
my fat boy!
my fat boy again!

breakfast: pastry + guava juice

lunch: rice + dishes + peach tea

tea: one love letter

dinner: subway terriyaki chicken

supper: hot green tea!

exercise: - ( walking? heh.)

2007-02-18T00:48:00.000+08:00

so happy chinese new year everyone
its scaring me how fast time flies.
but not fast enough for me to get back to school
i really miss the school life : /

spent new year eve with my boy.
totally love it, cos i love shopping with you!
but most of all, i love you.

reunion was usual,
just that we had two more people around to the family!
which is great :D
joanna is such a sweetie.
i mean most babies are.
but shes exceptionally sweet.
cos she loves me. haha.

whatever it is,
im just babbling in this post.
so shrugs.

2007-02-16T20:32:00.000+08:00

okay, heres the deal,
im selling my last pair of heels earrings at 4bucks! ((:
so same! call me, or mail me, or tag my board!

went ta malaysia yest!
whee, it was kinda fun!
now i know where my liking for eggs & potatoes comes from!
aunty eve!
the biggest nian gao ive ever seen!

met baby at 11,
lunched and stuff,
went ta taka ta collect my pay!
p.s: jaclyn! sarah! go collect it! :D
went for piano,rushed to moe.

met baby to go holland.

have i said i hate rainy days?
its like so eeeky! : /
wet and uncomfy,
cold and shivery!

anyway, i thought this was funny,
laugh if you think it is. haha.

baby and i were finishing up dinner at holland.

me: there isnt any dessert here is there?
sam: nope there isnt any lizard here.
(i was looking around)
me: (points!) there! its there!
sam: huh where got, no lizard!
me: there see the blue sign there!
sam: no, no lizard!
me: its there! there?!
sam: oh! you mean dessert! i was looking at the blue sign if there were lizards!

(we both burst out laughing)

okay, so laugh if you think its funny la huh!
alrighty! tata everyone!

2007-02-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

damn, i cant see my own postings
but i guess people can, so shrugs.

i know you wont see this,but
despite whatever that happened,
nothing in my heart changed,
ive done my best,
ive given my best,
ive loved you like ive never before.
so im sorry.

2007-02-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

someone,anyone.
call me? : /
im in a really super shitty mood.

2007-02-15T19:43:00.000+08:00

i havent been here for so loong.
anyway,happy valentines day one day late?
i love my boy alot!

anyway, i made these!
buy it! (:
handmade!
$12 bucks!
reasonable negotiation is allowed! (:
contact me thru my cell,
or drop me a mail, billabonggal90@hotmail.com

more stuff to come! whee.

2007-02-13T09:09:00.000+08:00

i cant stand you
i cant stand you tryin to be queen
i cant stand you thinking everyone owes you.
i dont, and i dont need to.

2007-02-11T21:36:00.000+08:00

churched,home,holland,home,vivo

wondering why i got home then i got to vivo?
cos i forgot to bring my keys out of the house
how dumb of me.
it has gotta be all the complicated things
thats making me so dumb

i really like to go holland
when i have cash, i can just spend non-stop :D

oh guess what, i so want that puppy i saw today at pet lovers!
its a cutesy shih tzu!
omg la, i love it when its only 2months old!
i change my mind!
i want it for my 17th birthday this year!
someone get it for meeeeeeee!
pleassssssssssssseeeeeeeeeee!

im gonna wait for baby's call!
tata everybody!
i love my baby ALOT.

2007-02-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

first and foremost,

happy 1stmonth birthday joanna!

well, went for joanna's 1st month celebration. what can i say, shes adorable.considering the fact im not a really kids person. so trust me when i say a baby is cute.

sheila!

feeding time!

thats the mommy!

shes so tiny in my arms.

she doesnt like her mittens

hello lil sleeping beauty.

vday present from fay!

from baby!

gosh, i love the weight stands,they are so pretty.

i really really love the balloons, they are so pretty! omg. its just like my lil dream i had that day! whee! im a happy girl. best of all, its from my sweetest boy.

well, i guess i always say the wrong things. or rather,making you upset. but you know what, i really felt like a stab into my heart when i saw that. its just i don know, it seems like i gotta share your sweetness or something. but i guess, nvm. anyway, whatever it is, thank you for everything youve done for me, thank you for even the smallest things youve done for me. im really ever ever so grateful. i appreciate every single effort you put in just to make me happy. thank you once again. anyway, i know youre still mad. im not gonna force you or anything. but im still here. ring me when youre ready, or ring me if youre alright after you see this. if not, its okay. its up to you. i love you.

2007-02-10T09:55:00.000+08:00

well its my niece's first month bday
lunch at some restaurant in toa payoh,buffet style.
reunion dinner at my dad's side too.

seriously, just pray that they dont bombard me with the results thingy
nobody should right now,

i appreciated those who called, texted.
alvin,fay,phyllis,mrs tay,janice..the whole lot of you.
im really not in the right frame of mind to disclose it
im sorry.
its just freaking upsetting. thats all.

i met baby at kap at 9?

we had a good talk and stuff.

things worked out fine.

and im glad it did (:

a special shoutout:

annette: thanks for just being there! i know you didnt know what to say,but your presence was enough. thank you girl. it meant so much!

sindhu: im glad you came back, you know i haven't seen you in a loong time, and we all missed you. besides, thanks for your encouragement.

jaclyn: yes my darling, i love you heaps! thanks for spending the rest of the afternoon/evening with me! i love you, i love you company!

mrs chew: haha! i know you wont see this at all, but thank you so so much! jaclyn and i practically screamed out lungs out when we saw your car turn in! thank you so so much for just having faith in us that we are able to pull through this!

sarah: gosh, thanks girl. thanks for even reminding me, about god's goodness and all. thanks for even comforting me in THAT way! lol. i love you woman!

BABY!: last but not least, you! yes you! thank you thank you so much for even meeting me at night, for even just being there for me, it meant so much. and thanks for keeping the promise you made to me. your presence was enough to tell me, everything's gonna be alright. you mean so so much to me. i love you heaps.

im gonna indulge my upsetneess in some one tree hill.

before my mom screams her head to get me to change!

2007-02-08T22:40:00.000+08:00

the last thing i ever need,
is you turning you back on me.
and you know what,
if you do, fine. by all means, go ahead.
just remember this, dont ever look up for me again.

im not like you,
just remember that,
im not as smart or as capable as you.
taking this results thingy
its a big deal to me, it worries me so so much.

all i can ever need now,
its your support, your encouragement
if youre gonna be pissed at me
for being so worked up,
sorry, thats me.
leave if youre not happy.

2007-02-08T10:04:00.000+08:00

yes i know i havent blog anything
about the release of the upcoming results.

say that im overconfident,that im not bothered
well,i definitely am worried
nothing worries me more than this.

but the prayer i uttered to Him at the alter on sunday
has kept me going these four days.
cos he sorta answered half my prayers,
the others will be determined tomorrow.

dear heavenly father,
i know sometimes im just ever so unworthy to even ask from you. all i should ever do is to thank you. but you promised me, you'll always be there for me in my heart,no matter what happens. i thank you for even seeing me through this whole year. it wasnt an easy one, it wasnt something such a bliss, such nice and danny year. but i thank you for being taking my hand, leading me on. even as i went through paper after paper, you were there, in my heart, in my mind, in my exam hall. now the results are out, only you know what the results are now. you knew it even before i was borned, even before i was formed in my mom's womb, and i know you planned it out for me, the very best plan ever. the most perfect plan i can ever have. even though i may not meet the worldly expectations, my friends and family expectations, my own expectations, i know so long as i meet your expectations, its enough. its more than enough for me to carry on life's war. even as im gonna get my results on friday, you know how nerve wrecking it can be, you know how anxious it can be. but lord, i dont need 6A1s, i dont need to get into the top jcs, or anything like that. i just want to be somewhere you want me to be in, somewhere of my interest, somewhere i will never regret being in. im committing this to you, because i can do nothing else now. father, be there for me as i receive my results, take control of my emotions, take control of my mind. thank you so much for everything, i love you.

went ta chinatown & town today

dang, my mom didnt buy me my cheap dress!

she said it was ugly. like come on!

hello boing boings!

thats a spider boing!

and a puffer fish boing!

orange&pink boing boings!

we were going town, say hello nana!

hello nana AGAIN!

samantha's finally in a picture! (:

and another! hello samantha! :D

and hello blingblings! i love my bambi one!

and hello peacock feather! haha

2007-02-07T17:01:00.000+08:00

i love the huge huge heart balloon!
the one thats in pink and it has pretty flowers designed on it!
pretty! awww. <3

2007-02-07T16:45:00.000+08:00

nana! i wore the shirt you gave me!

its JUST NICE! ((:

i had a good sleep,
but i dont know why im feeling tired, again.

today was so boringg,
followed my mom ta town,
she got her stuff,
we ate at bk please.
she suggested it!
like where did 'fastfood was unhealthy' went to mom?

supposed to meet jac at 330,town
but i had to be home for dinner
so we wouldnt have enough time
im so so sorry girl!
friday evening is still on?

i had a cute dream last night,
i dreamt i was given a nice helium balloon,tied together with it were 4 other normal ones with vday wishes on it!
i want this dream to come true! wheee!
someone make this come true.

im really really tired,
and i really miss that boy.

im gonna nap,
ring me if you need to contact me!
love love.

2007-02-05T20:53:00.000+08:00

first and foremost!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEETEST LOVELIEST SEXIEST HOTTEST SMARTEST SPORTIEST COOLEST GREATEST TALENTED-EST CUTEST ADORABLE-EST CARING-EST FANTABULOUS SNEAKIEST AMAZING-EST

BABY BOY!

YOURE SIXTEEN! SWEET SEXY SIXTEEN!

i really just thank god for you, for the most precious gift ever,
i really treasure this gift alot.
no words can ever explain how much you mean to me.

my life wouldnt have been the same without you
you played such a huge role in my life.
youve been the greatest boyfriend, listener, night chat mate,shopping mate,advisor,meal dates.
but most of all youve always been there for me,
rain or shine, good or bad.
it meant so so much. every little thing youve done for me.

all i can ever say is, i just thank you ever so much
and i love you milions and millions and millions!
youre the best!
smooooooch! :D

this is what my mom got him! this isnt fair isnt it!? omg.

but this is gonna be the nicest shirt in his closet! haha.

well, i went tanning this morning

with nana & jaclyn.

it was crazzy.

okay, actually both of them were crazy!

i was the glam one, being pretty,

getting tann. haha. ((:

they are so gonna kill me when they see the pics!

dont you just love my beach towel?well, cos it matched my bikini! see!

nana! hohoho!jaclyn!

the three of us! ((:

see thats jaclyn! shes lonely.

now shes got nana!

and they slide down the slide together! how kiddy! hhaha.

shhh! thats nana! shes nekkid! haha. shes gonna kill me when she sees this.

and boo! shes awake! lol.

after that i met my baby boy for his bday!

waiting for pathetic 74 cos we missed 2 of it, i didnt wanna run.

and still waiting!

yay! we finally got on the bus!

oOh! check out that dude! hes mine! so hands off girls.

and essential brews we went!

say yum!

and yum yum!

and yum yum yum!

i tied my baby boy down! haha.

theres a reason why my hand fits yours.

i love you baby.

gelare we went after!

i know youre gonna kill me when you see this!

awww <3

well, the day's been good.i love my girls and i love my baby boy! smoooch smoooch!

and you know what?baby done a good deed today! :D

2007-02-05T20:14:00.000+08:00

nana came over to my place today, we watched like 3dvds? johntucker must die,bluecrush,lilo&stitch2 ive like watched two of which.

dover-ed after,met up with jac. pretty much a fast catchup time we had.

came back, rushed out to get somet stuff done! i hope all goes well, grins.

i love my boy.

sometimes i wished i didnt know anything. what i dont know wont hurt me.

2007-02-04T20:13:00.000+08:00

first and foremost,

happy birthday ronald!

youre big fat seventeen!

may all your dreams and wishes come true!

well, church was cool today,i was sitting in the same row as seth and sarah,gosh what can i say, they're just so adorable! (:

bugis-ed with baby boy after

gosh, its so freaking crowded

and what we hate, its so hot,

and some people are just so stupid.ugh

went town after,i saw my pretty pencil case again. man, i so so love it.

theres something wrong with my alignment of my blog post,it gets a little irritating.

someone buy me a pretty vday helium balloon! i will love you very much!

ive talked to grace on the phone! we so need a shopping trip together!

2007-02-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

nana! my lovely woman! haha.
not very lovely, but very sweet ((:

chinatown!

my dearest fat boy!
decors.

stall along the streets.

and this is what cand & i got so cheezed off on the bus! 985W!

im gonna post it to stomp ((:

nevertheless, i miss my boy.

gosh, but im looking forward to tomorrow!

yippy ya yay!

im gonna bathe!

and night chats!

i love you all!

i love my boy!

i love you candice! ((:

2007-02-01T11:03:00.000+08:00

i havent been updating for so loong

well, the past few days been so draggy.

stuck at taka for like 3days in a row is terrible.

the pictures will speak for the past days la.

gosh, im going nuts.

i really really miss my boy so so much!

i cant wait ta see you tomorrow! yipppppy!

okay, sounds super childish,i know.

but dont blame me, i just so love my boy.heh.

i wanna go shooooooppping!

2007-01-28T15:02:00.000+08:00

im in a foul mood, so just don freaking agitate me
if not don complain if i give you my piece of mind. ugh.

yes, blame it all on me okay.
its always my fault isnt it?
its never yours, youre always right.

its my stupid fault for just being a lil upset
my stupid fault for spoiling it.
my stupid fault for being angry okay.

fine, dont look me up ever again,
YOU SAID IT.
and i guess i was so dumb to even reply
how stupid of me. gosh.

enjoy your free time then.
go clubbing, do whatever you wanna do
i wont care since you dont anymore.

im so freaking pissed,
im gonna watch one tree hill
and mug my music history

2007-01-27T22:13:00.000+08:00

ahh! im happy! :D

well, today was fantabulous!

piano-ed, holland-ed, cell-ed, queensway-ed,ikea-ed

aunty sandra is so patient with me
im determined to study hard for it
read up music history,do melody and harmony
practice perception questions.

holland was cool
gosh, i love those long necklaces!
i wanna make my own ones! ((:

cell was alright, psalm 33
im gonna prepare for the next!
proverbs 3 i think.

queenway! looked for twin's shoebag
apparently they dont have it :(
im so sorry twin!
but i saw so many bags and shoes that i like!
i wanna go there again!

ikea! well, i love the furniture there
furniture shopping with my baby was fun
man, i love this table lamp,
but its so bad for the eyes boy.

but the company today was great,
i love my boy ta bits!
smoooooch!

2007-01-24T20:06:00.000+08:00

can you see! they totally LOOOVE ME! hhaha.

met nana & jac today
they visited me! lol.

munching all the tidbits over chat sessions.
went ta dover ta drink slice fish soup!

nana went for her sitting,
jac & i went to holland.
walked around and stuff.
dang, i really love those clothes!

its just im short of cash.

im gonna watch tv!
nevertheless, i miss my boy ta bits!
i love you heaps!

2007-01-23T18:54:00.000+08:00

ive been out the whole day with my mom.
gosh, shes a really funny woman i realised. heh.

we went town, ate out lunch at din tai fung!
paragon-ed to get new bedsheets and bolsters!
i kept trying to convince her we didnt need new bolsters!
i love my old one.

window-shopped at taka, i saw this lovely top&skirt
i really love from pull&bear!

wisma-ed and wheelock-ed after.
what can i say, my mom has really expensive taste.
and i love zara's shorts!
okay, maybe only that one i bought. haha.

holland-ed at around 2plus,
she got me to bring an umbrella cos its gonna rain.

mom: can you bring an umbrella? its gonna rain
me: okayy.
and we were walking out of the carpark alr.
mom: hey hurry hurry! switch on the umbrella!
me: what? switch on? mom! theres no ON button!
mom: that black one? switch it on!
me: gosh, you dont switch ON an umbrella!
mom: aiyarh,then when you dont want, you off it la.
me: whatt? what sort of umbrella is that?
mom: why are you so troublesome? just switch on the umbrella
its getting into my hair!

there! i love you my mom! ((:

2007-01-22T18:43:00.000+08:00

gawd, ive never been in such a foul mood before

watching tv was so difficult
dinner was such a pain
and staring at my stupid phone
is even much more of an arrow piercing into my heart

i want things like before, get this right.
i want to be with you, and ive never regretted that
i love with you my whole heart, and im so sure of that.

2007-01-22T10:52:00.000+08:00

i dont know why but im feeling really crushed up inside
things doesnt seem to be getting better
maybe its just a misunderstanding
or maybe its just pure selfishness on each side
i dont know.

but i know it hurts, its painful
i hate this, i want this to be over
the agony is beyond explanation.

tell me somebody,
that today is gonna be a better day.
it might help, just a lil bit.

but i need you to tell me that things are gonna be fine
you to tell me, youre gonna make it all right
you to tell me, you love me.
you to tell me, im all that you need.

2007-01-21T21:24:00.000+08:00

churched, lunch at westmall,home,vivo,home

i seriously thought pastor rick warren was coming today!
so sadly its the video.
it got a lil draggy after awhile.

we started bluetoothing pictures and songs around.
just to keep awake.

lunched at westmall,
yepp i had fun. honestly.
time spent with YOU is always fun! (:

went ta vivo after that,
this lil girl at nike is really cute.

nana bought me a pretty funky pink notebook!

a very very late xmas present!

im tired, im gonna shower and probably sleep

i dont know why every good thing that happens, a bad will surface

i dont know why i just keep doing things that makes you unhappy

i dont know why its always my fault

i dont know why its always me to see things from your point of view, have you ever considered mine?

i dont know why you said i used you, i havent. i didnt. i never will.

i dont know why i just cant make things right.

i dont know why i never can make you happy.

but i do know what i love you, i need you and i want you happy.

2007-01-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

gosh, today was tiring : /
had some talk at moe, piano.

cell was rather different today
but alot of emphasis on the word, which is good (:

holland after cell with babyboy!
pigged out at the hawker centre
gosh, the food was goood!

baby bought a new aeropostle pullover!
that makes one of us! :D
its nice! cos i chose it! haha.

gosh, and i so love the clothes at holland!
im gonna shop there now!

alrights, i better shower!
i love you all!
but i love my baby the most!smoooch!

2007-01-19T11:27:00.000+08:00

chalet!

first day.

i love moo moo! <3

second day

third day.

the last day.

2007-01-18T18:16:00.000+08:00

ughhh, im feeling so shite up
ive enough, its been such a dreadful time.
im feeling so fired up

just dont bother me.

i will probably be angry till the extend i burst dead.

so just let me burst dead then.

stop putting yourself down,its not your fault.
its all mine, all mine for throwing my tantrum
sorry.ive just have enough of all these.
i love you heaps.

2007-01-18T17:43:00.000+08:00

darren's send off

2007-01-18T13:42:00.000+08:00

im ever so glad im back from chalet,
and im glad that baby's back from his trip too.
i love it (:

i will leave the pictures to speak for itself.
i will post darren's sent off and chalet in the next post.
i love my boy ALOT! ((:

fusion

church anniversary lunch.

2007-01-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

whoots, im back.
kinda out the whole day again
but im happy today!

my baby texted me!!! :DD
oh gosh, it made my day so so much!
sad thing was, i cant reply la. sigh.

i was late for church today.
today's just erm..
church,church anni lunch,clementi,airport,home.

during lunch dan scared me with a chicken's head!
its so eeeky! the tongue's like white. yuck.

send darren off and stuff,
we all took hell loads of pics,
mostly, its with ms toh.
and o's results are gonna be out on the 9th!
like help me somebody?!

i promise i will post pics
from fusion,lunch,and send off
once im back from chalet.
none of the guys are staying over
it will just be the girls. how cool is that, i like.

1and a half days to go!
i love you heaps and millions and billions and gazillions baby!
smooooch.

2007-01-13T23:48:00.000+08:00

FUSION

yepp i was at suntec the whole day

workshops and concert at night.

im really really beat.

i was out of the house since 645 till almost 1130

well, the workshops were okay,

notes were useful but presentation was kinda blah.

but overall, its goodd.

dinnered with my lovely group! at crystal jade

fay!nana!maye!cand!

jiamin left for carls jr.

thanks fay for the haagen dazs treat! <3

concert at night was fantabulous!

gosh, its really really such a blast.

youth alive is good :D

jumping was never this fun and this rewarding!

well, im still trying my best

hanging in there the best i can.

2and a half days more! gosh.

press on samantha, youre almost there. (righttt)

its never easy,

especially its someone that meant so much

that made an impact in my life,

without you i know my life wasnt gonna be the same

i want you to be back!

ive been such a good girl! (:

i really gotta wait for my hair to dry

then im gonna sleepppp.

i love you millions and millions and truckloads and truckloads of skittles baby!

smoooch.

2007-01-12T20:16:00.001+08:00

omg, i freaking miss you like crapp : /
its gonna be 4hours before day2 ends!

hang in there samantha, youre doing good! (like real.)

today's time seems so short!
jurong with mom,dover ta get fatboy's topup card,
acsi to pick fatboy up,home,town,queensway,home.

AHH! im so excited,
i cant wait to see the outcome of the thingy!
haha, i hope the thingy comes out the way i want!
thanks nana, for accompanying me!
geez. im so so excited! (:

alrighty, im gonna watch skating with celebs,
9pm channel8 show and idoido on channel62!

i love you heaps my boy, im waiting for you to be back!
3 and a half days to go!

2007-01-12T20:16:00.000+08:00

2007-01-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

in another 30minutes, one day will be almost gone.
you know what?
its so not an easy task for me.
ive got another approx 120hours to go!
its just so different, its so hard to explain too.

well, today's been such a headache.
my head's being pounded cos of the daunting chemical smell. eeek.

appointment at 11,piano lesson,
dinner with nana,check out stuff with parents at vivo!

im gonna meet nana tomorrow again,
i think shes getting sick of me.
sigh, so much for wanting to crash at acib tmr,
gawd, i just cant find a mg uni.

my stupid phone is spoilt, save it somebody!

i miss you my dearest, its just so different
without the simplest things im provided for.

2007-01-11T09:15:00.000+08:00

crappppp. its the start of the 6loooong days.
how i can ever live without you?
every single day with you in my life meant so so much.

i know you wont see this.
but hang on to every promise i make to you!
cos yes, you can go in ease and comfy. haha.

most of all, know that im waiting for you to be back
so we can do what we had planned,together.
million and one things! grins.
i love you a million and one kissables sweetheart. <3

alrighty, i better go shower
ive got the appointment at 11.
red! (:

2007-01-10T18:28:00.000+08:00

first first first!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWIN!

gosh, youre smashing seventeen!

youre OLD! O-L-D!

im glad we had an hour plus chat this morning!

and i saw you today!

i love you heaps and heaps!

smooooooch.

today was kinda fun. hah.

it was to the basement with nana to give out flyers

school,acsi,school,town,holland,home.

oh gosh, its just hours and hours away!

seriously, somebody help me to get over these 6days.

i think im gonna be a dead duck by the time 6days are up!

geeeeeeez. help help help!

on a lighter note, im looking forward to tomorrow!

maybe not for the piano lesson part la. heh.

i love my guy ta bits,youre my gift of load of joy!

2007-01-09T12:35:00.000+08:00

geez, its just two more days.
crap. somebody kill me!
how am i ever gonna survive that 6days?
oh darn : /

anyhow, ive got a song up!
thanks to nana in helping me search (:
you&i both! (:

im talking to nana on msn now,
and you know what?
shes going crazy over ivan! like hmmm. haha.
shes gonna kill me when she sees this!

nevertheless, i still love her no matter what

see nana! feel honored! your picture is here! ((:

2007-01-08T17:59:00.000+08:00

alrighty! ive got a new skin, i really love this one (:
pink & green, really pretty.

gosh, ive been sleeping like the whole day!
high fever, head's being pounded.
i feel like a slug. haha.

id probably be meeting my sweetest tomorrow! :D
ive an appointment at 11am this thurs!
baby! its your lil surprise when you get back (:

ohoh! i love this picture (:

but most of all, i love the guy in it! (:

p.s: nana, i hope youre okay! i love you girl