i had quite an alright day, till you spoilt my day, i doubt you'll see this,but argh,how can you be ever be so unreasonable! irritating piece of shite, self-centered,selfish,bitch. im so not gonna be nice anymore.
on a lighter note, i miss samuel lee! if you see this, TAG ME! sorry that i ranted at you just now! i cant believe shes so nehneh.
im gonna start my research¬emaking tonight!
random pictures from sat and today,
Monday, April 30, 2007
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< | Sunday, April 29
churched,lot1,home,holland.
candice! hi! i like the emo song! i promise we will register the camp sooon! im so so lazy! : /
lunched with my boy,alvin,shauna, meiyi,shuoxian,jorel,george. funny bunch of people i tell you (:
an extra special shoutout to my boy: baby! gosh, please chill alright? i know it sucks, i know its pissing off, i know youre tired, youre stressed out, youre frustrated, but please please my dear boy, CHILL! its not worth your anger AT ALL, i want to see that smile! that smile ive fell in love with! cheer up and know that im always always here for you! and i so do love you! smoooch
Sunday, April 29, 2007
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< | Saturday, April 28
MOE,imm,candice's place,church,harborfront,home
if you ever see this, thank you aunty veron for the ride up the hill (: its so sweet of you,
im feeling crushed up, i dont know what im doing with myself, its just complicated&messed up,
i love you baby, but will you give me the chance?
Saturday, April 28, 2007
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< | Friday, April 27
gosh, im so upset with myself im feeling so so crapped up inside, like what the heck man, what the heck are you ever doing samantha? youre such a kukusami!
seriously, im always making things so bad, i tried to make things better, but somehow, it doesnt turn out the way i wanted it! oh sigh, im not trying to hard right?
grrrrr, im so pissed with myself,
Friday, April 27, 2007
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< | Thursday, April 26
i swear i would never buy anything from unauthorised online sellers anymore. freaking irritating postpeople, pfffffffffft. grrrrrrrrrrr. i will shop personally from shops, pay a lil more, get it right away!
i should not even go window shopping! once i lay my eyes on something, i would so want to buy it!
okay, whatever im ranting, im just feeling so crapped up over my top, thats lost in the mail, somewhere in singapore,freaking pathetic
Thursday, April 26, 2007
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< | Wednesday, April 25
omg i was listing out my wishlist, its so darn long, i want practically everything!
can a nice fairygodmother, plonk me with a treasurechest worth of cash?
shopping, is such a sinful obsession, so much for, 'buy an item,a week'
i miss you my boy! i <3 you,
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
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< | Tuesday, April 24
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i just got back from malaysia and im so so tired, i miss that boy ta bits! webcamed was fun! (:
i love my newfound wallpaper! <3
you know the right words, to make me feel whole again, you know the right ways, to make me smile,
i love you for who you are,
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
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< | Monday, April 23
ive slept so much today! maybe its good, so i wont eat, therefore, i lost weight! fat hope samantha.
anyhow, met maye my dearest BFF! holland's provence,teabreak! (: chitty chatty session was fab!
not alot of pictures la, we only realised when we were in the cab home! nevertheless, i love you bff! <3
ah! i miss samuel lee my boy! sigh! i wanna see you soooon! oh wells, call me!
met ilena at cityhall mrt, BILLYBOMBERS ribs for lunch!yum! overspending was the right word, to describe today's shopping trip!
cream of wild mushroom soup for teabreak, at the soup spoon! yum yum!
ice cream treat from ilena, at BEN's & JERRYS! chunkymonkey! (:
i was packing my wardrobe, and dang! ive got three piles of unwanted clothes, rather clothes i dont think i'll wear anymore, so if you want them,tag my board!
further down will be, picture overload with ilena! so dont mind the unglam shots! (:
but before that, i wanna say, i miss my boy! heappps! 11may! i cant wait! i miss times like these,
PICTURES! at the end of the day, im such a big fat shopaholic! ah, sinful obsession : /
Sunday, April 22, 2007
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< | Saturday, April 21
my tummy's giving me hell load of a problem, it gets upset soooooo easily! gosh, it hurts so bad :(
daddy's back, with purchases of electronic stuff! no sign of clothes&accessories! why daddy! why!
went for dinner at race course road, i love the claypot rice, super yummy! ben&jerry's at raffles city too!
but sadly, its giving me tummy so much problems! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i miss you my boy!
MAYE: bff! yes we've yet to lunch and we so need to! i wanna go shoppingggg! <3
candice: i think its 20 may! nvm la, we missed the early bird discount! its just 5%!
if you see your picture here! youre greatly missed by me! :D
Saturday, April 21, 2007
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what the fuck is wrong with the internet! i typed a freaking hell long mail to send out, they dont let me send, and they didnt even allow me to save it! ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
so bloody pissing off! go to hell.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
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daddy's coming home today, im glad, so yay!
now my question is, what IS one step at a time going to be? is it gonna lead to what YOU want? or is it gonna lead to what I want? think about it.
you know what i want, and i find that its nothing wrong, we've just gotta learn how to deal with those issues, i mean by running away from it, its not gonna do any good at all isn't it?
Saturday, April 21, 2007
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< | Friday, April 20
can you believe im BANNED from tagging my own tagboard?! this is so dumb! i'll reply my tags here!
weilin: hi! thanks, im trying my best! but may i know who are you? from..?
jaclyn: you silly girl! cheer up okay! follow your heart but guard it too alright?you know what i mean la, so please cheer up! im glad i saw you yesterday! i love you girl, i'll be here for you no matter what happens! (:
ilena: woman! vainpok woman! cheer up okay! im gonna be there to let you rant at me, just as how i always do rant at you too! lol. everything's gonna be alright, so hang in there! love you too woman! and im not A stuff! remember that! im a lady! glamorous lady!
candice: hello sexy! i hope we can go church camp and bunk together! i will accompany you ta study & help you paint your nails la! ah! im getting so excited! sexys need their shopping time soon! love you sexy!
oh guess what, i bumped into people again! i saw MS HIA! giving that sneaky look, nothing new from her la. i saw wanling, dearest ms mango! just as when i was chatting with her online last night, i saw her! i saw malcolm too.
suppered with my dearest samuel lee at essential brews just now, potato wedges&summerpeach! just the right combination, the right company, the right topic of discussion, one step at a time was the conclusion (:
alright, im gonna go shower! i love my girls, and i love samuel lee
Friday, April 20, 2007
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i dont want to be friends, WITH BENEFITS. you know what i want, i still dont find your explanation sensible, its just youre scared, thats all. precisely you dont know what the future holds, and youre not even giving it a try? tell me, why isnt it worth the try?
Friday, April 20, 2007
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< | Thursday, April 19
ive been bumping into a no. of people these two days, i saw marcus foo yesterday, ilena&jaclyn came visit me, jonathanchua&the girl,mrs chng, seb&daniel on 61 today, apparently, daniel was dozing off.
so yay for me, except the fact that you didnt keep all your promises, still disappoints me, i guess i will just leave, shrugs,sigh.
anyway, this is for the faifield choir, everyone of you there!
i know i havent been there to see you guys sing and practice, but i wanna say,a job well done today,i am ever so proud of each of you,you guys did great alright!i know alot of time and effort was put in, but no matter what, i believe god has his plans for this choir, he has been ever so gracious to us all the time, instead thank him for the results, wipe those tears away and smile! i wanna see all your pretty faces! press on and practice hard, but all of you did so well! i love you all!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
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< | Wednesday, April 18
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sometimes things are beyong your control, its beyond many things you just cant see, im clinging on to the tiniest hope there is, im feel so naive, so innocent, maybe i just am that,
i still want, what i want.
but ive enough with emo posts&rants, i want ta be happy, i dont know how long i would take to be happy, maybe never.
im gonna be a brave girl,
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
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i believe theres true love in this world i believe ive experienced it, to tell you that, despite the happiness of it, is indescribable, but the hurt&the heartache, is indescribable as well.
i live by this that, ' nobody falls in love by CHOICE,its by CHANCE nobody stays in love by CHANCE,its all EFFORT nobody falls out of love by CHANCE,its by CHOICE'
so will you make it work? will you make it work even though, upset is the only thing resounding our heads? will you make it all better, then to run away from it? i want to get through this hurdle together,i want to get through this hurdle and continue to walk on together,as i believe with EFFORT given, it will work out,
unless, you yourself have CHOSEN not to, i really guess, ive got nothing more to say, ive got nothing more to cling on to anymore,
you will just be of my past, and you know i dont want that, will you grant me this? i dont ask for anything else in the world alright, i need you, i need you to get me through the day, i need you to make my day, i need you to be there for me, i need you to love me despite whatever happens, i need you to give me greetings every morning&night, i need you to drop me texts out of the blue, i need you to ring me as and when i least expect it, i need you to be my guy, i need you to make my heart whole once again, i need you to mend the heartache,
ive said all i can, ive given this one LAST chance, i love you
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
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i just got woken up and i cant get back to sleep, ive enough about certain things, enough is enough, ive been taken advantage without knowing, and with their realisation, i feel bloody, cheated.
how could you ever do this!? huh! youre being so selfish! you dont want to be together, but you still want the other party? since when in this world has such good deals, probably only stupid people like me, would give in to such good deals, get taken advangtage of,
you refused to respond to WHAT I WANT, you refused to say a word about WHAT I WANT, but instead, you took advantage of my weak spot, to get what you want? how could you ever do that? why are you like that? since when are you like that? why are you so selfish? huhh? im hurt enough already okay, if you think by doing this, its making me happy,making me smile, youre wrong, im far more hurt alright. happy now? go school tomorrow gloating about it! i dont care anymore! i dont care about you anymore! just get lost okay! gosh, ive burst okay, ive burst, ive bottled it up for 2years4months, ive finally burst okay samuel lee, this sucks,in case you didnt know. know your place will you?
i dont know what i ever did to deserve this, i dont know hwat i ever did wrong to you alright, forget it, what YOU want, is not what I want, so we dont click, we dont meet to the terms, we're not on the same frequency,
and it thought this week was starting to get better, i was wrong, now with this thing, and im woken up with horrid cramps, just kill me somebody, im tired, im so tired,
i love you from the bottom of my heart, you gave up that chance, you treated it as though you had power over it,but im telling you now, i dont want to, its hurting me, its tearing my heart apart, its excruciating pain is killing me.
i dont see you showing initiative to make things right i dont, its always me worrying ever so much, if this is how its gonna end, dont remind how we got together in the first place, thats it okay.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
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< | Tuesday, April 17
first&foremost,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMSON CHAN! although you annoy me half the years in my entire life so far, but i still love you, somehow.
im not in the mood okay, i feel crapped up, nothing's gonna change that feeling, i just dont know you anymore. strangers is what it is, fine by me.
i miss you right this moment, but does it make a difference anymore? probably not. shrugs
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
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this is it, im so mad, what made it worst, and stoopid blogger take forever to load,
if this is happening, im not agreeing to it, but i doubt you even care about MY OPINIONS, whatever, fuck everything, i should have just left for newyork, why did i even stay, how dumb of me,
im not in the mood, so just stay clear, if not i'll blow your head OFF anybody,
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
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gosh, ive never been so mad!
i wasn't happy about certain things, i was disappointed, i was upset, i felt terrible, i felt crapped up, i wanted to be comforted, i wanted to be assured,
instead,
i was left hanging, why, connection failed, not allowing text to be transferred, rang up starhub, claimed theres massive people texting, what the heck, but in some sense, relieve.
all i can say, i miss you i want,what i really want, i dont want to be rant at, especially at precious time like this. i love you
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
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< | Monday, April 16
just came back from fareast's vodaskin, gosh, it kept biting my face! :/
i wanna go shopping! i saw so many things i like! like literally so many! sigh!
i cant wait for 11may, hurry come will you? :(
im so tired, im gonna nap, enjoy the video! i just came across this in youtube (:
hello samuel lee! i miss you!
Monday, April 16, 2007
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< | Sunday, April 15
churched,imm,jurong,alexandra road.
i know you wont see this,but thanks aunty mary for the lift to church!
met my mom at imm after, for lunch at fish&co. i had new york fish&chips.
my mom knew i was so depressed, she offered to pay my movie ticket, yes i know its kinda pathetic to watch a movie alone, caught mr bean's holiday, mrbean=seriously dumb in the ass.
things got better after, and i had my nice avocado juice today! yum yum yum! *smacks lips!
i want to type this, i hope things are fine, maybe these are the lil stepping stones, we've got to get through?
this guy is a great guy,honestly. no words can ever express how thoughtful,how caring this guy can ever get. how sweet his words&deeds come across.
he is one great guy, bestest friend, my bestest shopping partner, my bestest person i can ever confide in,rant at,get mad at.
but i know, he is one guy i gave my whole heart to, he is one guy i gave my commitment to, he is one guy that made me smile without fail, he is also one guy that broke my heart, he is also one guy that made things right again,
he is one guy i would be there for him no matter what, this is my promise.
no matter what, you will be kept ever so close in my heart you just mean that much, i love you.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
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< | Saturday, April 14
have you ever came across one point of your life where, people just fail you, they fail you especially when you expected so much more from them, sounds selfish, but when you fail them for certain reasons, they just turn their backs on you, making you feel like you just commited something so wrong
but then again, you wonder what the heck you ever did, sometimes in certain situations, its just so hard, so hard you just are at lost for words of what to say, and what to do, then, its the point, youre just so lost, so alone.
i hate changing my phone's wallpaper OVER & AGAIN, that feeling so suckk.
Saturday, April 14, 2007
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< | Friday, April 13
maybe i should stop caring altogether, i care too much, too much till i dont even get back what i deserve whatever, im not a pushover okay.
theres a limit to everything yes, its ALWAYS my fault! im such a troublemaker, what to do samantha,youre that stupid.
Friday, April 13, 2007
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< | Thursday, April 12
my mom was telling me, we're going to hk,this june! kill me somebody.
either ive been a spendthrift,in my past life or theres something wrong with me i keep shopping, NON-STOP! i realised ive yet to wear any of them, gosh, shoot me. samantha,youre wayy pathetic.
i keep wearing my old clothes or i just dont bother to dress up, freaking lazy attitude
and whats worst, samuel lee's mad at me. just great. wow.
okay,whatever that was typed above, i was babbling, and i feel so much better after!
thoughts of the day!:
*i want to go shopping! (oh, shut up samantha) *i want another phone *i feel like eating subway tmr! *i want an angel to transfer loads of cash to my account! *i want to have a day out with samuel lee sooon! :(
Thursday, April 12, 2007
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< | Tuesday, April 10
im just plain tired. who ever knew doing nothing makes you tired.
anyway, i miss my boy heaps! gosh.
enjoy the video!
im not a jesse mccartney fan, but i like this song!
if you see my girl,
just tell her i miss her smile,
tell her i'm counting the minutes,
gonna see her in a little while.
i know when she holds on to me
she's the one that i could never leave without
oh oh oh oh
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
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< | Monday, April 9
ive no pictures today pathetic i know.
whats more pathetic is that i didnt swim! im still thinking of whether i should go now. so fickled minded me i know.
pianoed,fairfield sec,clubhouse,home,ghim moh.
went back to school to sell my choir shoes and collect our school mag. first thing i stepped into the office, we saw ms lim,scolding three fellas.
i wanna go shopppping! gosh i so want that newurbanmale bag! (: and so many other things too! shop shop shop! :D
i miss my boy! but sadly, SIGH!
anyway, check this out. i hardly post videos. but i like this.
cause i cant live if you're not happy,
i can't live if you cry,
but i can live without you, if it makes you smile
Monday, April 09, 2007
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< | Sunday, April 8
gosh i havent been blogging my internet connection's been down stupid mio wasnt functioning!
anyway, this week's been so tiring yeah, aint going in detail too much of details to type out.
i will probably just put up random pictures.
i like this advert.
samuel lee junjie! this was exactly how i felt when you-know-what happened! :(
