sigh sigh sigh< | Tuesday, January 31
sigh i dun wanna think so much about stuff already
im cool :)
i was stuck at my mom's cousin's place since last night
which means my mom's cousin the children is also my cousin
distant cousin to be exact
haha. i was sleeping in this huge room with 3 crazy people
screaming and shouting and singing and all that crap last night
haha. they are all showering now but im too lazy
haha i want my apple laptop ! after using this beautful apple desktop im determined i want it now! rahhs
ive got some more visitings to do again
super sick of it already keep eating and eating
i need to start swimming again!
k i better go shower and eat im hungry!
take care everyone
love you all
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
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i know i need you< | Monday, January 30
sigh i hate this whole avoidance thing
i hate it so much that i could cry
i know i need you
i need you everyday in my life
i mean i know ive no 'control' over you anymore
but it sucks that you just 'left' just like that
dont stop all communication with me just like that please
text me?
Monday, January 30, 2006
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oh whatever< |
well honestly i wasnt irritated
because i understood what you went through
all i felt was that i couldnt reach out to you
its as though whatever i say falls on deaf ears
but maybe you dont care
maybe you dont ever give a damn about it
what angers me most is the way you just want to leave things alone
not wanting to bother me anymore
maybe you want to get me out your life or what
or maybe you just dont want to have anything to do with me anymore
or even maybe youve been sick of me
i dunno but what i feel is that you literally pushed me out of your life
what i can do now is to what? go along with all these la
sometimes i dont want to care i dont want to bother
why waste my time
but many a times its just so hard
because i hate to see you in this state
i think you dont ever care right now isnt it
so i think i in turn shouldnt care also
this is how i really feel about this whole thing
you might think im being such a huge loser to get so worked up over stuff
but i was never irritated until i felt you pushed me out of your life
Monday, January 30, 2006
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chinese new year day< | Sunday, January 29
ive decided on my new years resolution :)
in no particular order
*to work hard for o's
*to be nice to everyone
*to walk with god even closer than before
went to granny's place this morning before going church
i was so distraction during service today
though i was paying attention to the sermon
somehow i felt that my heart wasnt there
after service went home
changed my bottom
because it was too short to be worn to church
went to my other granny's place
had lunch and stuff
after that we still had time
so my other cousins decided to catch i not stupid 2 at lido
we drew lots about who is sitting with who
and i was smacked between two crazy people.rahhs
so we went after that uncle jon's chauffeur came to pick us up
dinnered at granny's place
they started playing mah jong
after hanging around awhile
decided to go back
because the rest of them decided to come to my place tomorrow morning to swim
haha. yepp today was pretty okay la.
tomorrow theres a whole list of visitings to do!
take care everyone
love you all
Sunday, January 29, 2006
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chinese new years eve< | Saturday, January 28
well i actually did wake up early today to do some work
pokey left for penang this morning
hope shes having fun over there
after doing work followed my family to bugis
we had lunch and its so funny that we took a family neo print
i kept laughing for no reason
after that went ta meet maye
we walked around
went ta opposite bugis
saw quite a few THE puma,THE roxy and THE billabong bag
its hilarious.i was looking for my silver bag
but i couldnt find it as in i could but its not worth paying for
a bugis bag kinda thing. so oh wells
after that went home ta get some stuff for granny
went to granny's place
cousin collin was cooking up a storm in granny's beautiful kitchen
hes a chef in some hotel for french food
everything smells so good (:
totally loved the food
while waiting kyan and i were watchin punk'd
its so funny he keeps predicting whatever things that the person was gonna say
i had fun la. after that we went to chinatown
saw this guy whom i modelled with last time
times when i were pretty and skinny okay (: joking la
but its cool
alrights im looking forward to church tomorrow
take care everyone
love plenty
Saturday, January 28, 2006
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studytimeless< | Friday, January 27
today school was having ethnic celebration
i wanted to wear my indian costume
but seeing that we decided to wear the orange funfair shirt
i went along with it
the celebration was okay
after it ended went towning with the girls
totally love them
we took neo prints
it was since i-dunno-when i last took neo prints
haha.its was hilarious we kept laughing
saw tonns of fairsians in town too
walked around and stuff
after that went to taka to meet my mom
dropped by mango first
and i saw kathi.gawd i miss that girl ta bits (:
it was cool and stuff
then went with my mom n samson to mango at isetan
got some stuff there (:
after towning went to granny's place
i was supposed to help out with stuff
but i was doing manicure in the end
after that we went to suntec
granny did last min grocery shopping
i went ta shop for my stuff (:
im kinda broke la.heh
but im really tired
im gonna get a good sleep today
and wake up early to study
considering i didnt study today
alright take care everyone
love plenty
Friday, January 27, 2006
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its just so crap< | Thursday, January 26
sigh its so crap
i was in no mood to study for my tests last night
whatever i studied nothing went in
woke up earlier this morning to study
some stuff went in though
geog test was okay
i hope i really would pass :)
i seemed to get the hang of the format
whatever i studied did come out
and for some it didnt.rahhs
ss test was so so la
i didnt finish my paper
i had no time
SIGH i hope my eassy was not out of point
hopefully i pass too
now its not about passing!
its about scoring!
i need to buck up
yes i know i promised you
im sorry for being such a huge loser last night ya
i was just so not in the mood
esp when everything didnt sink in
thanks for just being there once again
love plenty
Thursday, January 26, 2006
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been days< | Wednesday, January 25
yes its been days since i blog i supposed
oh wells ive been so busy all week in fact
there was never a week im free :(
not even having the time for movies!
or rather out somewhere nice for lunch.sigh
its either stay in school till real late for choir and whats not
if not i will have to get home to do my homework and study for sickening tests
if not i will have to start catching up on last year's work!
how terrible is that
i want the year to end.oh wait.correction.heh heh.
THE O'S TO END!
and i can do all that i want that im unable to do this year :)
oh and i heard from samson that they are having a concert at barker
on the march 20-ish
hopefully its the same one as mine la. HOPEFULLY! :)
haha.im so glad there isnt really school on friday
and i dont feel like going out now.
just feel like lunchin at somewhere nice and go home
gotta go to granny's place to help her out with stuff
gosh talking about granny i miss going to her place
a place that brought so much memories back to me
a place that i grew up in and that place i remembered where everyone else at home treated me like a princess
those were the times where its just so carefree where no worries at all
but now im out of that 'comfort' zone
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
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monday.< | Monday, January 23
today school was okay
nothing much
lessons were okay i guess
today dont really have much homework because i finished them
it feels good to be on track (:
just that this week has quite a few tests
okay two tests la
spcial studies and geog
two humans subject
something i supposed to have got the hang on la
but oh wells. i so have to pass it la
WRONG. do well in it
ah im looking forward to friday actually
i always look forward to the weekends
i love the weekends (:
oh i better buck up on my horrid math
i cant believe i cant even get 5stupid properties of the circles thing right
so sucky. im gonna PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE :D
i dunno if you will see this. but text me once you do alright
i think its really funny that we were trying to change the names
and the names seemed so chinese-ish.
but im glad you really think the way i do also
because i was afraid that you might think they were right
and i feared that things might change la
but its good that it seems quite nonsensical
but seriously i thought you were avoiding me for some reason or the other
but i guess i was being so paranoid after what i was made to think about
but now im not gonna bother so much
because it CLEAR
and you will always be that sexy of mine la (: no 'tom'
haha. study hard and hang in there. love plenty.
Monday, January 23, 2006
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grins< | Sunday, January 22
i was feverish this morning
didnt feel like going church at all
but i had no choice
well i think im such a pain in the ass sometimes
oh wells. im sorry really.
things are better now i guess
well i was being so paranoid.grr
oh yes i love julia maye cand amelia alot
dont ask me why but i do :)
not forgetting my pokey as well la :)
k ive to rush out with homework!
tata
love you all
i love sexy toot alot too :)
Sunday, January 22, 2006
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fusion. sadness fills me< | Saturday, January 21
fusion was fun saw so many people there
pity kathi couldnt make it :(
oh yes and i tell you i love amelia and julia and maye and cand ta bits and pieces pasta and marcaroni
yes sadness just fills me up so much
i dunno if im just being sensitive
or im just being such a pain in the ass
but you made so many promises to me
you promised me so many things
but now they all turn into dust
because it carries no meaning at all now
or maybe i couldnt face up to reality
im scared to know the truth or whatsoever
but im really sad now
jealousy fills me as well
im feeling oh so lousy
Saturday, January 21, 2006
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ahh toilet!< | Friday, January 20
i was so pissed today till i dunno if i should cry or laugh
i wasnt allowed to go to the toilet despite being so URGENT!
and allowed someone else to go instead
so sickening still scold me saying i gave excuses!
hello is it wrong to even answer the call of nature?
do i have to pee in class before you believed me?
so annoying.gahh.
im gonna dislike you for the rest of the year!
mep was okay.quite fun. :)
im so looking forward to tomorrow!
and i love the pretty exclusively priceless gift la (:
Friday, January 20, 2006
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tired< | Thursday, January 19
gawd im so tired
really drained out
really energy-less
this gotta suck as its just the beginning
the beginning of this whole damn thing
this whole shit i have to get over
exactly 6months left studying in school
exactly 10months before this whole shit is over
im tired im drained im EXHAUSTED
i need the strength from you
i need it to just carry on day by day
i need it
tests are starting
more homework is piling
projects and stuff are coming in
due dates are drawing close so fast
i just need space to breathe
Thursday, January 19, 2006
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SIGH.betray< | Wednesday, January 18
sigh im so tired :(
yes my sexy toot is gonna be back today!
oh wells school was okay. kinda fun
slept a little while during free period again
and pokey took pic of me can!
silly pokey haha i like to call you pokey now!
and i love you pokey :)
OH AND THERE ISNT A GEOG TEST TOMORROW!
even ms toh asked us got geog test meh?
after school was pretty fun also
ate at dover with tang peanut jac ilena sheryl
then it started pouring so heavily
followed jac to cut her hair
then it was still pouring so we ran across the road
hang around in school and stuff
and my stupid sole came out can.ugh
oh and i was helping peanut to do his work
not exactly la maybe teach him more like it
after that saw nat and sam
we walked out together with pokey!
i love cand peanut pokey jac sam and the rest of them!
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
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much better day I GUESS< | Tuesday, January 17
gosh today was pretty okay i guess
had 3 free periods 4 including recess
wanted to do math but was never productive
read cleo and felt tired so i started sleeping
after jac woke me up with wakey wakey call
aud jac n i went crazy singing all sorts of songs
super funny but FUN :)
lessons were okay i guess
after school did ss and stuff
peanut bought me lunch how sweet
and there was some stupid irritating guy
that made peanut so pissed
and he accidentally squirt water at my stuff
peanut helped to take revenge
until that stupid guy threw his freaking tissue paper at me
i got so pissed
tol jac ilena tang marcus chuan hao
marcus scolded that stupid guy can
that guy was so scared la. stupidd
even nat and samuel chong finds him such a pest
YES MY DEAR PEANUT I WILL GET YOU THE WALLET LA :))
im so proud of my peanut.
hes such a gentleman and a real fine guy *winks
even peeling the chicken skin and cutting the meat out also la
i do appreciate it! smiles
piano was okay
im looking forward to tomorrow and saturday!
and i hope there isnt a test this thurs!
take care everyone
love cand sam alvin peanut ilena jac marcus tang chuan hao!
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
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sickening< | Monday, January 16
theres so much to blog about
and im gonna take time of to do so
if not i would probably burst by then
firstly sometimes i dont understand
i dont understand why is it that everything i do seems to be wrong
little things i ask for i dont get,
even things that cant be bought with money i dont get them
its so sickening that everytime i dont get the chance to tell you what my plan is
and you just ASSUME and jump into conclusions
you didnt even question me
but you lecture on and on
never mind about the lecture
its those words that you say are so hurting
that youve hurt me
but obviously dont even know that
you said you understand me
you said youve been through these stages
but from what i see you dont seem to
you just assume
yes i know you want the best for me
even though many times you disagree
at least let me explain myself first
before you go on and on about how bad things will turn out
if you dont let me try it how would you know
yes, i know you dont want to wait till things turn out bad before i learnt my lesson
honestly right inside me its so disturbing its so annoying
no doubt i get what i want
but the little requests i ask for you dont fulfil them at all
im really upset inside me
and i have enough of this
enough of this messed up horrid life
Monday, January 16, 2006
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its saturday.5days to go< | Saturday, January 14
okay todays saturday
its 1pm now and i just woke up not long ago
how pig was i SIGH
my aunt pang seh me today
that means i cant get my pants!
im gonna pester my mom later! grins
i love that pants ta bits la.
im so tired yes TIRED
i slept sp late last night or morning rather
yawns. i still got homework to do
then im not gonna do any work already
im so i dunno depressed!
oh wells. blog later la
i love cand,sam,alvin,my peanut ALOT!
Saturday, January 14, 2006
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one day down six days to go< | Friday, January 13
gawd one day passed only.
okay today's the second day
it just seems so long
though im like fully occupied most of the time
and the solution of not thinking so much,
SLEEP & SLEEP & SLEEP!
sigh i miss you like a million and one red m&m's!
and still counting sigh
im so glad the weekends are here
im so tired everytime its the weekdays
insufficient sleep was the problem
maybe it boils down to insufficient time
and i know its still long way more
but im still not sure where im aiming to
though its ngee ann for me
but ive got other alternatives in mind
that i really want to aim for also
but im so afraid i cant make it
and im so afraid i would be so disappointed
if i didnt get in
sigh. okay i know i need Him to lead the way
to mark it out for me
THE BEST PLAN
Friday, January 13, 2006
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one week< | Wednesday, January 11
gawd its gonna be 7long days
like 168hours,10080 minutes and 604,800seconds
i think if my calculation is correct
oh wells
im gonna miss you so so much
another week that i have to keep busy with
just come back safely is all i ask :)
sigh im so tired i dunno why
its just horrid i guess
oh bother
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
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maye's sweet sixteen< | Tuesday, January 10
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN MAYE!
YES YOUR OTHER PART OF THE PRESENT IS STILL WITH ME
its been great knowing you all these while
and i thank god for you
love you tonns twin! (:
no studying for me today
my mom didnt allow me to
oh wells
i bought my shiny gold bag today! grins
i saw that pretty black pants that i want
and that green spag from island shop!
im gonna get it soon (:
k im gonna start studying
take care
love you all!
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
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body clock crap< |
current craze:
*wedges
*flats
*tank tops
*spag tops
*PANTS! (:
sigh.i think my body clock is screwed
my mom scolds me for that
its so crap
im just tired from all these
its gonna be 2days more before you leave
and its gonna be 8days before i will see you again
duration gets longer each time you leave
its just so long and so sad
im just gonna miss you alot
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
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irritating< | Saturday, January 7
current craze:
*wedges
*flats
*tank tops
*spag tops
*pants! (:
ah its so irritating
i feel so unproductive in some way
oh bother
im looking forward to church tomorrow
i need to get out
out of this horrid routine
i will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break, the way you did, you fell so hard
I?ve learned the hard way to never let it get that far
Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to find it hard to trust, not only me,but everyone around me, Because of you, I am afraid
I lose my way, and its not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry, because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break, when it wasn?t even whole to start with
I watched you die, I heard you cry, every night in your sleep.
I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me.
You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain.
And now I cry in the middle of the night, doin the same damn thing
Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don?t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life, because its empty
Because of you, I am afraid
because of you-kelly clarkson
Saturday, January 07, 2006
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saturday< |
current craze:
*wedges
*flats
*tank tops
*spag tops
*pants!! (:
SIGH. actually i dont want to blog about unhappy stuff
im just tired really
weekends arent actually a time to relax
catch up on revision time!
most of the time have been staying late to finish HOMEWORK only
so crap la. okay enough of this. and i just fell sick again.rahhs.
I LOVE CAND SAM ALVIN MY PEANUT ALOT! ((:
Saturday, January 07, 2006
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weekends< | Friday, January 6
im so glad the week ended
its been such a horrid week
having insufficient sleep had been the problem
im oh so tired and so drained so dead and so lifeless
i need the strength to carry on
i need the strength to go through this
because of you
Friday, January 06, 2006
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sigh.unwell< | Thursday, January 5
sigh. im feeling so unwell
crap. and theres so much homwork thats piling
and so many due so soon
sigh im really feeling so terrible
oh wells.
i want o's to be over quickly
but at the same time i dont want
im so afraid that i haven finish my revision
its really tough i realised
no slacking at all already
but its just so hard
oh wells
alright gtg
take care everyone
i love cand sam alvin alot! (:
Thursday, January 05, 2006
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school started.stress settling< | Wednesday, January 4
okay i wont be bloggin so often already
i wont have time i just realised
haha
well school has been okay
lessons started as usual now
but today i had 2.5 hours free
haha
tomorrow lessons seems long
oh wells
alright ive got work waiting for me to do
take care everyone
i love candice sam alvin ALOT!
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
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latenight sleeping< | Monday, January 2
haha yes i couldnt sleep
because of the long 4hours nap
and i had dinner at almost 11?
haha.i laze around some more
i guess this is probably the last time in the year i can laze around
till o's are over
haha i slept at 6
and woke up at 10!
haha now my tummy's rumbling! :D
im HUNGRY.ugh.
haha yes i just posted a comment n cand's blog
im saying the same
i love candice sam and alvin ALOT!
these guys mean the world to me la.smiles
alright im gonna do something
take care everyone
have fun at school tomorrow!
love you all
i love things the way it is now.really.it came from my heart (:
Monday, January 02, 2006
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new years day< | Sunday, January 1
FIRST
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE
i slept at 330 after talking to my darling cand
haha shes super funny la
yes out sticking and standing up
OH I WILL TIP YOU LA.HAHA
THANKS FOR SHELTERING ME ANYWAY
church was okay
i guess cand n i were kinda struggling to keep awake or something
after that we waited so looong just for alvin n sam
to go lunching at lot 1 after that
cob webs were growing all over the place la
okay it was really a fun one i must say
really.these people that also mean alot to me as well
we had sweet talk after
and went long johns,ordered fries
sat there ta talk
after that we kind walked aimlessly around
stood at many places for so long
and we decided to go to cand's place
after having quite weird plans.lol
we were laughing so much at her place and having some photo craze thingy
no doubt i had a good time la
schools starting
im fearing of so many things la
oh wells
i shall just enjoy tomorrow first
then the mugging would start i guess
alright tata everyone
take care
love you all
Sunday, January 01, 2006
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