drowning our sorrows< | Tuesday, August 30
school was okay
i totally missed my sweetie
was so so so glad i could see him after school
but he was so upset.so disappointed
i didnt see a smile on his face at all
and that saddened me so much
my heart just dropped
its because i love you so much
my heart goes out to you when youre sad
when youre happy
i feel such a disappointment
that i cant even cheer you up
though i know you will not listen
i feel such a failure
mep test was CRAP.
i totally screwed it up
i wasnt concentrating at all
but forget it.
shant talk about it.
and you know what darling?
everytime when im down
you were there for me too
i dunno what it is that will cheer me up
but its just that special something you have
i know youre disappointed sweets
i know you had put in all your effort
in wanting to get in
but you know what
many times things do not go accordin
to what we want
its because god's plans for you
he might not want you to go to that path
because he has better plans stored for you
i know how you feel
im serious
you might think im just saying out
some model answer comforting words
but im not
ive went through exactly what you had
and i know how you feel
just pick yourself up from where you are
and obey god's plan for you
cos he will never want to hurt you
listen to him kay?
cheer up.
i never want to see you so down
i never want you to be upset
i just want you to be happy
i miss that smile on your face
and that smile that just melts my heart
i miss all that darling.
shall call you later kay
but if you want time to reflect and stuff
just go ahead
i shant disturb you
but just want to let you know
im equally as sad as you are
and im even on the verge of tears also
tata.
i love you
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
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grandad's bday< | Sunday, August 28
today's grandad's bday
samson went for class just now
waiting for dad to pick him up
then we will head to grandad's place
im already dressed up larh
i so need to buy clothes
im running out of them
crap
i will go get my mickey top later i guess
see how
see if ive got time
hah
alrights
blog later
tata
Sunday, August 28, 2005
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< | Friday, August 26
doreen's feneral tomorrow
cant go
granddad's birthday
lunch+dinner
yepp
its really sad still that god just took
her back to him
but we know that shes safe in his hands
that she can do marvelous things in heaven
with him
this just reminds me of my aunt
its been more than 2 years she was gone
i remembered how sad i was
i remembered that our relationship
was just a neutral one
and i remembered how i haven shared christ with her
i always wanted to
but i never had the chance to
i miss her
i miss those times when she bought pretty gowns for me
when i was little
i miss those times when she fed me when i was little
i miss all those
but aunt, i miss you,your presence around
but what i believed is that god is with you
and youre safe with god as well
i love you aunt
sweets got back results today
know youre upset
but take it easy kay
but you still did well
and im so proud of you
yepp
i love you
Friday, August 26, 2005
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iso day 1< |
hmm
school was okayy
everything's alright i guess
ms lim announced some tragic news
its super sad
it just make me want to cry
it just remind me how life short is
how god could just take
away your life just like that
how you should treasure your love ones
and not take them for granted
and how you should live your life to the fullest
everyday yepp
after school had iso
two hours passed quite quickly though
had honeydew sago (:
but the sago's not pretty anymore
not pink or purple larh
hahs
still xmas colours!
haha
alright
blog another time
tata
love you
Friday, August 26, 2005
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tues.wed.< | Thursday, August 25
tuesday.
school was okay
was super tired larh
must be the chat on mon night
i was like half asleep even before chapel started
worship was okay
sermon was quite interesting
as in because of how the speaker talks larh
hahas
its about homosexuality
yepp
school was okayy after that
after school met ms ng
5days isolation
went dover get ilena's sour power
bought pancake
went for the chinatown heritage
the bus has no teacher (:
the stupid guys bullied me larh
stupid jonathan chua
reached there
quite boring
we were dismissed at 4
decided to go jp
josh pang seh
so we went imm instead
ate kfc
GLENN & HAN TREATED ME DINNER!
AND TOOK A SCOOP OF MY POTATO EACH!
sat there
talked
was so tired
asked my dad to fetch me home
suppose to do the project thingy
com cant download hansvision
talked to my sweetie
and he so love to make me angry huh
silly sweets
ilena called after
talked and i slept after that
wednesday
met ilena in the morning
we both had bread
we exchanged our bread
mine was egg
and hers was luncheon meat
hahas
ms lim talked about cheating today
crapp
school after that was okay
ilena n i went dover for our honeydew sago
the sago's no longer pretty
its so xmas colour larh
oh wells
met nataniel wilson charles there
everyone ate except nataniel
he claims hes broke
after that went back school
did chinese
left at 450 for piano
went back school
then went back
rushin through chinese stuff now
to my dear sweets
you know many times
we were so nice to people
people take us for granted
they treated us badly
with no understanding at all
but you know god knows that you've been nice
that you've loved your neighbour just as yourself
and god sees it all
so all i just wanna say its that
try to tell her and explain to her ya?
dont be so down anymore ya?
i miss that vibe in you
but no matter what i will still be here for you
i love you tonns sweets
tata
Thursday, August 25, 2005
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attire check.mep.< | Tuesday, August 23
today my hair was super neat larh
because of the attire check larh
haha
our whole class girls passed okay
except ilena
cos of her collar pin
because hers is gb
so it isnt sold at the bookshop
so considered that our whole class passed
and the guys were super shocked larh
school was okayy
after school was even better
went for mep
jeff helped me put my bag in the other room first
after that went down to the office there
cos naomi is suppose to meet her cousin
then coincidentally my sweetie came
his hair is nice today
hahas
saw alot of his friends
finally saw that keith larh
haha
after that my sweetie went with me to my mep class
followed me to get my bag
and put it to the other room
after that we went to his locker to get my file
there were a a whole group of guys outside his neighbouring class
someone pestered my sweetie okayy
stupid
then like i went to open his locker (:
when i opened it
i guess they were shocked
im sure everyone will be larh
then after that walked passed them again
all of them were calling out my sweetie's name larh
one or two of them even followed us when we went up larh
terrible
but they can always introduce themselves to me if they want too!
haha
but i still love my darling sweetie.
totally made my day
after that mep was okay
ms ng was so pissed at one moment larh
because of jeff larh
stupid
then mr lee came in
asked us to do melody
i was too lazy to let him check my work
as i was writing my sweetie's letter
so once i finished i showed him
the rest of them still failed after letting him check for
3 times
so i thought he might fail mine too
he passed mine after seeing it
and i was so shocked larh
happened 3 times in a row already
haha
the rest of it was okay
ilena send me an e-kiss thingy
i sent one to my sweetie
think its totally sweet
hahas
alright
blog another time
tata
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
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< | Monday, August 22
didnt go church today
stayed home and study
totally missed my sweet
hmm
anyway
mom cooked dinner
it was okayy
my dear sweets was super cute larh
he was like i played with bubbles when i showered
oops
guess im telling everyone here
but anyway
he sounded like some 3yearold kid larh
super funny
but totally love him
tomorrow theres mep
will be seeing ms ng
dunno what shes gonna do with us
gotta pray hard
hmm
alrights then
blog some other time
tata
Monday, August 22, 2005
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< | Sunday, August 21
came home from school yesterday
mom came back around 5plus
first thing she asked me why am i on the com
then she asked how is the school gonna punish me
then when i went to practice piano
i was coughing
then she said she wants to bring me to see our family doc larh
then i was like no need larh
cos now my voice is okay alr
as in can talk properly alr larh
yeahh
after that followed her to send samson for class
ate dinner
she went to buy for me cough mixture
how sweet of her can
i dunno why is she treating me like that after such a major thing
and i also dunno what did god talked to her also
but what i know is that the more she treats me so nicely
the more i felt so guilty about what ive done
but i promise this will be the last of the last
no more nonsense
right now im gonna study hard for end of years 5 weeks more
yepp
guess there wont be enough time to
but i will try my best
today my dad's coming back
i pray that he will not scold me or anything
im really afraid larh
yeahh
but i commit all these to you lord
talked to my sweets for more than an hour ++
totally love him
although we were like fine larh for a period of time
and rachel was totally adorable
as usual
at least his place has some noise
haha
wont be going cell until exams over too
yepp
alrights
blog another time
tata
love you
Sunday, August 21, 2005
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< | Saturday, August 20
whole of yesterday my mom didnt talk to me
i know shes upset
but when she doesnt do anything about it
it just scares me
i just want things to be back to normal again
i dont want her to worry for me
i just want her to be happy
today the guys had attire check
so there were only 8 girls in class
until there was an anouncement made
for ilena n i to go the hod room
we waited there for almost 4 periods
before ms ng came
she asked us to write what happened
after that she said she will talk to us on monday
but i cant talk to her on monday after school
hope she does it during lesson time
sighh
i just cant wait for this thing to pass
i really cant
once my dad comes back tomorrow
im gonna get it from him
i know it
but i just want things to be okayy once again
it just suck to even be in this
but its all because i was desperate at that moment
lord, i really need your strength in this.give me your
wisdom and your guidiance
im sorry for failing you once again
i feel so unworthy of you
i know youre just as upset as my mom
but i know things will be alright in the end
i trust that you even wanted me to go through all these
to learn something out of it
and lord im trusting its your plan
Saturday, August 20, 2005
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still voiceless< | Friday, August 19
im still voiceless
its so hard to talk larh
but anyways
lifes terrible
got caught for cheating
in deep shit now
both parents dont want to talk to me
oh wells
mom is communicatin through samson
sighh
tomorrow's gonna be terrible
dunno whether ms ng is gonna see us during school time or after school
but whatever it is
im still dead larh
mom,i know you wont see this
but i know deep down inside youre really upset
you know i hate it when cold war starts
you know it that i love you
you know that i always wanted you to be happy
but i also know that what i did did not make you happy obviously
everytime we chatted as if we were friends
was the most wonderful thing that happened in my life
when we went out shopping together
be it whether we buy stuff or window shop or even just having lunch together
that happiness that fills me is unexpressable
its a real privilege that i even have the chance to
i know ive made you upset embarrassed these few times
but i really promise you that this is gonna be the last
and mom i know you will think that im not sincere and all
but you know every time this kind of thing happens
i feel so so sad
i feel that ive just disappoint you time and again
and i know that youve given me chances time and again as well
but mom, sometimes i dont know why does these things happen one after another
sometimes it just happen
and everytime it does
my heart saddens so badly
i know you might not know it
but im also as upset as you as well
because i want you to be happy to be proud of me as much can do
right now
im really sorry mom
i know you will not forgive me anymore
but i really am sorry
i love you mom
sweets,i know youve been sick of me always getting myself into these kind of things
and i know you cant do anything else but to listen
and you know what.i really do appreciate it.
for just always being there
youve been the greatest.youve been there in my down moments
my joyous moments.everything.and im really sorry.ive always making you wait and stuff.
and youve just been so patient with me
thanks for all that.
anyway. i will try to contact you whenever i can ya?
and i just want to say i love you and i miss you.
Friday, August 19, 2005
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lost my voice< | Thursday, August 18
crap
i lost my voice
its even worse than yesterday
wont be able to sing larh
but oh wells
its so hard to talk
as in like youre speaking so monotone larh
oh well
i miss my voice
school was okayy today
chinese test was so hard
oh wells
nvm
physics lesson was okayy too
ilena n i were like pasting the bday note my darling wrote for me
(:
after school
ilena n jac called my darling
i couldnt talk larh
even if i do
i sound horrible terrible :(
went dover
i had my honeydew sago
its so pretty larh
as in the sago ((:
pink n purple
ilena n i went back school
went library
on the way we saw these super cool nice lockers!
after that went canteen to sit down
my darling's mom was talking about me
according to my darling
and she said she bet 499 of his messages goes to me?
like hmmm.
okayy
i doubt so larh huhh
im sure he has many other PEOPLe to message as well
so yepp
im not the culprit man
(:
after that i went home
have to do my a math soon!
yepp
dad's in hong kong now
hope i get my esprit jacket soon! grins
alrights
blog some other time
tata
i love you
Thursday, August 18, 2005
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voiceless< | Wednesday, August 17
i woke up being zao xia
stupid larh
but oh wells
i seems so soft larh
hahs
school's okayy
i was really mean today
sent a msg to someone
when its not suppose to be for that someone
sorry
but youve been irritating me
yepp
hm
and that silly darlin
im not that old okayy
aiyorh
terrible larh you
but i still forgive you
alrights
gtg
chinese mugging!
tata
love you
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
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ITS MY BIRTHDAY! (:< | Tuesday, August 16
WHEE
THIS ROCKS
ITS MY BIRTHDAY (:
HEH
ILENA GAVE ME A PRETTY PRECIOUS MOMENTS HELIUM BALLOON
RACHELLE GAVE ME A TWEETY HELIUM AS WELL
PAM GAVE ME A AUGUST BEAR+RING
AUD GAVE ME EARRINGS
AND MOST OF ALL MANY BDAY GREETINGS ((:
TODAY WAS GREATT
GOT TA SEE MY DARLING SWEET HEART
HEHH
TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH YOU
ALRIGHTS
GTG NOW
TATA FOR NOW
I LOVE YOU
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
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exactly 4hours till my bday< | Monday, August 15
heh heh
its exactly four hours till my bday
coolness
hahs
church was okayy
tuition was okayy
going join han's tuition next tues
yepp
tomorrow i still got mep
but at least it will be nice
cos i will get ta see someone
hahas
yeahh
hmm
alrights
tata for now
love you tonns
Monday, August 15, 2005
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YAY< | Sunday, August 14
this is great
finally my dear com this back
so my avid fan candice can start reading my blog again
haha
yepp
just came back from holland
darling ilena let me choose my helium balloon
its super darn nice larh
hahs
yeahh
later going church
get ta see darling
finally
haha
yeahh
totally missed you guys larh
yepp
blog again
i love you honeyy!
smooch
Sunday, August 14, 2005
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ages since i last blogged< | Friday, August 12
my my
its been ages since i last saw my own blog
terrible larh
my whole com crashhed
oh wells
hope it gets repaired soon
anyway will update this blog soon
with a nice blog skin probably larh
alrights
blog another time
im totally in love with my darlin
had a FANTABULOUs time on SAT
love you
Friday, August 12, 2005
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